my world

You're the apple of my eye

2011-12-22T02:32:00.001+08:00

Today I finally caught the movie you're the apple of my eye.

Whoops I print screen it from my phone. Overall I find this movie very relatable. For every guy , there will always be a Shen Jia Yi that you have met once. For every girl , there will always be an instance in which a boy tired to chase you.

One thing that struck me in this movie is that the female lead, Shen Jia Yi , actually said that she wanted, Ke Teng , the male lead to chase after her , because during then it is magical , when you get together , the magic is all gone.

I agree with this statement, many times when someone chases you , is it magical , yet when you get together for a long time , you are comfortable and you are no longer impress with what the person do. Instead you use what
you deem is right or wrong to judge your partner.

For example , when you both are dating and the girl helps a stranger , you think she is kind. Yet when you are together , you find her actions stupid and naive. How sad is it that our perception changes once we are comfortable with someone else. I always wonder if the magic will come back again, but I doubt it .

Over all the movie is very good. The bottom line is , cherish what you have before it becomes what you used to have.

Xoxo Rae

Beauty review

2011-11-18T18:01:00.001+08:00

Hey everyone ,

Yesterday was the shiseido sales, which was at their office situated at orchard building , the one which H&M is at. Liying and I went to the sales to see what new makeup hauls we could get. I needed new foundation while Liying is a lipstick fanatic.

When we enter the sales area, there were tons of people squeezing like mad. It was crowded and insane. I literally had to squeeze in with all the other ladies at the sales. At first I was looking for ettusais foundation, I'm acquainted with the foundation due to my makeover challenge. So I wanted to get the refill pack. After that Liying went to look at lipstick while I browse around.

As I was browsing around, I saw tons of items such as blusher , eyeliner, mascara and lots of skin care products. I was so tempted to buy new products. Each time I pick up the item , I would have to think to myself if I need it , so as to prevent myself from rash buying. Each time I pick up something , I would think of how many more products I have at home that I have not used , and this would stop me from buying.

Later on I thought to myself " since I have so much makeup products , why don't I do a makeup review on each product I use". Eventually I put back the ettusais foundation , got a maquilage foundation instead, under Liying's support, while Liying bought a lipstick. By the time we paid and go , there was a long line of ladies queuing to get in. Thanks god I went earlier. I walked out of shiseido's office with new foundation from maquilage( I think that's how you spell it) and a brand new idea on what to blog. By the way I will try to the ettusais foundation eventually, I liked it the previous time I used it.

Xoxo Rae

2011-11-12T17:03:00.001+08:00

Hey everyone,

Most of my presentation are over. There is so much in my life now. So anyway I have started exploring my talents in different things.

I have started to do my own videos , who knows I might do a vlog and upload it in blog. No worries I will still be writing. Now I'm more into covers for songs. I think Raina and I will be doing " if i die young" by the band perry. Grace has agreed to help with the songs that require piano. Oh well quite excited to get all of us together, my new covers are posted on YouTube , just search Raeannmil.

The second thing I'm exploring is song writing. I saw ANTM cycle 17 and the girls were writing lyrics and I felt like , if they could do it , I can . I'm still kinda lost to what topic to write about.

The one thing that has been bugging me is my gifting and talent. I feel as if I don't have a gift because I may have ideas but I don't complete them. This is really horrible . Plus I don't really know what god wants me to do in my life. Many of the people around me know their calling and I feel like I'm still lost. I also feel like I have no talents, like just floating around and this gets me upset. It makes me feel like I'm useless. I really don't know what to do. A girl in cell group was sharing about how god has used her for the pass months and I look at her and I'm like wow " god if you can do this for her, what about me ". I just feel so left out.

I guess that's all for my update. To all out there who know your talent, use them . Cause some people here are dying to discover their talent .

Xoxo Rae

Part homework

2011-09-25T23:06:00.002+08:00

Hey guys,

I am really thinking of doing Vlogs. Anyway I have got a new blog , well it is for homework, so i don't really have a choice to do it.

http://theeart.wordpress.com/

Here is the blog, please comment. Commenting helps me with 20% of my Grade.

Thanks

Rachel

lack of inspiration

2011-07-05T00:29:00.002+08:00

I know my blog has been kinda dead and I am gonna admit I dont really have much of an inspiration to blog about stuff because seriously life is just BORING. If I could really go overseas I dont mind blogging about such stuff. So talking about overseas trips. This gives me an idea. I am gonna post on my favourite place I have been so far and my favourite place I wanna go for a trip.

So till my next post . love y'all

Ettusias Makeover Challenge

2011-05-30T01:30:00.018+08:00

So last saturday on the 21st of May, Ettusais had a makeover challenge, Co sponsored by Panansonic and Cleo. Well the thing is that I have never been to one of these makeover challenge, let alone participated in any public competition. These events seem to interest me but it is difficult to find people who would participate with me.However, this round, things seems different.

It all started back about a week ago , when I saw the advertorial post by Holly Jean, I thought that this event was pretty manageable, so maybe I should join in the name of fun. The next step was to decide who to call. I wanted to call Si Ying, because she studied in beauty school so I thought she could do a good job, but I knew she would not be free on a Saturday because of church. The next person I approach was Jean, who had professional training in make up. Jean agreed to the thing quickly, but our worry was for a model.

The both of us called many of our friends and ask, sadly we were all turn down. Jean and I were almost about to give up and forget about entering the competition, when Hui Le suggested his friend Phyllis. I knew Phyllis through Hui Le's clique outting and she was really into make up and fashion. So I just asked her, she agreed quickly and our team was formed.

After that, being silly me, I assume the theme was Parisian Chic, So Jean got inspiration from Gossip Girl's latest season( because they are filming in Paris). We took Blake Lively's look as our inspiration, twisted it into a versatile outfit and added a splash of colour onto it.

This was our inspirational photo.

This was our final look.

So after all the discussing about our " assigned" theme during Thursday and Friday. Saturday was finally here. Jean and I met at Somerset Control Station after that we met Phyllis at the Office of Ettusais. So we had to register our team and have a team name, we did even think of a team name before this , so Jean came up with Ooh La La, but she forgot one O , so our name end up as Oh La La.Oh and there were 13 teams for this event. After that we were sent to this waiting room. there we snap some before photos.

Thats me and Phyllis before the makeover, Pardon my look, I have a very bad photo day and I did not have any make up on.

Thats the before look.

So after that we were brief of the rules and we were moved to the make over room. Each table has approximately two teams, some had three teams, so we had to share the make up. So discuss about the presentation of ideas and what shade of make up to use. The good thing is that Phyllis uses Ettusais , so we did not spend too much time finding her shade of foundation.

Soon, we got to work, I helped a little with the makeup.

After all the make up , I did the hair. It was really fun to do hair because Panasonic is just such a darling,I use the Panasonic Multi styling straightener EH-HW51 to curl her hair and I must admit it is just so much more easier to use than a curling tong. Firstly we a Straightening tong ensures that every portion of the hair that has to be curl will be heated up. Unlike a curling tong when if you roll too much hair over, it will not curl everything. Secondly, Panasonic provide attachments onto the straightening tong, to give the effects of voluminous hair, big curls and even super straight hair. The attachments are just so fun to use and after using the Straightening tong, I decided that I would use a straightening tong to curl my hair instead.

Once an hour was up, We had to present our theme and ideas , all of us took turns talking about our parts and what kind of image we wanted to present. After the presentation, we had a mini photo taking with the photo booth. The photo was really bad for me, so I shall not post it up here.

After the Make over Challenge

When the judges announce the winners, we were shocked that we won, because frankly I would never imagine myself winning such a event. The funny thing was that Ooh La La mean surprise in French so I guess this was really a good surprise. Also it was all of our first time, so it was really unexpected. Overall I was really happy with our team and even if we did not win, I would have enjoy the event really well.

The prizes

Oh and I manage to catch a photo with my favourite blogger Holly Jean. She is really a cool lady. Both Phyllis and Jean know I am a big fan of hers.

So after the event, We decided , what better way to celebrate than to parade around orchard road with me hugging the prize haha. We finally settle down at mos burger and the feeling of winning finally seeped in. Well here are some pictures to prove how ecstatic we were, well I mean I was.

Ok I look like a cross between screaming and hungry

Still trying to show more ecstatic than crazy.

Now i just look Possessively happy,

This is Jean's version of surprise happy, I think she does a better job than me.

I had to hide how happy I was with these star faces

looks like I cant contain my happiness

Can you see how big my grin is

Jean is happy too

We open up the Present and I must say that Ettusais is so thoughtful to pack each different product in 3, so it would be easier to split three way.

See they are so awesome, everything is in three, even the bag.

Oh and I decided to be funny by coping the ribbon and tying it to my hair. This is under the just for laughs section.

Nice right my ribbon.

Anyway the day was really s blast and my whole team totally enjoyed it. Somehow I wanna thank god for making all this possible because everything just fell into place. A big thanks to Ettusais f0r allowing us to get creative by hosting a makeover challenge. A big thanks to Panasonic for having a really awesome Multi Hair Straightener EH-HW51 and they gave us free tooth brush. Also to Cleo for sponsoring this event. Overall everyone went home happy, with big BIG SMILES .

food i have tried

2011-05-16T22:30:00.006+08:00

Ok people. I have been really busy with work and writing a new story. I need a cover for my story so as to entice people to read it. I think my story is too factual and not much emotions. Anyway I am bored and I am into uploading my work on the blog. So i guess I will upload some photos.

This is me at BFF ( Best fries forever). I had it with shelveen after our SMU open house. We tried the conventional cheese fries and it was awesome. So go try other favours which would be even better. BFF can be found at orchard cinelesiure basement, near frolick.

This was taken during Hui le's birthday, We went to try this Italian restaurant called Bruno Pizza bar. It has this pizza that has like vegetable on top, well that is their signature dish, so we gave it a shot. I am not too use to having veggies on top of my pizza , but it was a good change for that moment.

Now I am too tired to continue. I guess I just have to think of new stuff to blog about.

Love you

Rachel

food i have tried

2011-05-16T22:30:00.005+08:00

Now I am too tired to continue. I guess I just have to think of new stuff to blog about.

Love you

Rachel

Hurt

2011-04-05T23:54:00.001+08:00

It is moments like these where you can't turn back time and all you will ask for is a knife so that your disappearance will make the world a better place

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

Sorting hats in reality

2011-03-06T00:57:00.003+08:00

so I am going to write about some stuff that came to my mind in the bathroom. Well it is purely my opinion , I am not pin pointing anyone and you are free to agree or disagree.

What does hogwarts have that is similar to Reality?

The answer is

Yes Yes a Sorting hat.

I know what some people are thinking

How can there be a sorting hat in reality????

well lets draw some parallels from our schools to the sorting hats.

In our wee years in education, Our choice of location is the sorting hats even before we start school. One simple example, for parents who bother to have their children put into a good school would move near to the school so as to have a higher chance of balloting for a space right there. On the other hand, some parents are fine with neighbourhood schools and believe their children will do fine. Yet we must take into consideration of the school culture and the differences in curriculum the different "leagues" of school offers. Even though the fundamentals of subjects taught are similar, the different exposure children have in Primary school makes a difference to their grades which in turn affects how they view themselves and who they would be.

After PSLE, we all get sorted again. Some people get sorted in the " ravenclaw", some into the Sporty " gryffindor" ( Sport school). While others are sorted into different streams ( express, NA, NT). Different schools have different types of education systems offered, the elites schools might offer a third language, Some other schools offer triple science. Even between streams, each stream has a different label as to how they should behave. This is pretty much like the sorting hats that sorts how each student should think and behave.

This continues all the way to the tertiary education.The different school culture affect how student would do too. If everyone in school studies hard there is always the inevitable peer pressure and same goes to schools with different mentalilty. Even though there are exceptions from each school, the scale of effect the school culture play is important to the motivation the students get. The percentage of distinctions expected from good schools are naturally higher as they have a reputation to keep . Even in applying for scholarships , students from better schools tend to get more recognition than those from normal schools.

I am not saying that the school effects students grade because there are students who do well even though they are in normal schools. Yet we cannot forget that the school type and culture can motivate or unmotivate students. It also causes students to believe or limit themselves.

Of course there are some exceptions and this people are to be applaud for being who they are.

All in all a sorting hat can determine where you should go, but you decide what you can do.

These are just my thoughts and as i have mention , everyone can have different thoughts on this topic

Hornet attack

2011-02-24T02:56:00.002+08:00

Today was a crazy day. A really big Hornet flew into the house and Raina and Hui Le started like hiding . It is a Freaking Hornet and all of us freaked out about it. It was quite a funny scene. After a long fight, we manage to trap the hornet in the kitchen, I made a huge Boo-boo by spraying baygon all over the kitchen. Oh wow, i have to clean every single utensil there was in the Kitchen.

Anyhoo, we locked the hornet in the kitchen as if we had a hornet zoo. It was like the exhibit A. Oh well, the best part was the text to dad. I told dad about the hornet in the kitchen and that i sprayed Baygon all over. My dad's reply was, and i quote " Oh no . The food is gone". WOW my dad is more concern about the food than us, all in all it made my night.

Im back

2011-02-22T21:06:00.002+08:00

Wow it has been long since i have been back. That is a long stretch.

For everyone out there onsugar is dead so im staying here.

Tumblr was awesome , but i guess i just follow people's pictures and not mine. I find that hard to work with, but no worries im still using tumblr, to post pictures la. Not much of blogging for emotions or for feelings. I assure you , i am gonna change theme soon. So just be patient people. I know my blog is almost dead. But i guess i have to talk about different things in life to make people read it.

So wish me luck.

I have MOVEE

2009-09-07T18:08:00.000+08:00

Hey guys,

i have currently moved to on sugar, no worries all my memories are imported there too , so my link is http://livin-in-my-world.onsugar.com/

Thanks guys

TOodles
Rachel

blogger is back

2009-09-06T20:38:00.002+08:00

Blogger is back to it's old mode, that means i can upload pic, anyway the reason for an unpublished profile is , i have yet to get a good profile pic, someone do a photo shoot for me. OH WELL.

My sept hols starts yesterday, Exciting you may think.

NOT a single bit, all the studying and , mugging , but seriously last 3 weeks le, just mug it ovevr and later party like siao. Gonna let the wild child come out of me man. i miss my altered-ego.

have been having the urge to dye my hair red, like copper red.But i figure if i dye my hair red. I would not sing publically. If not i may get compared to hailey. which is not something good.I want my old hair back.

My birthday day was like the weirdest birthday i ever had.The night before,i unknowlingly put a pillow behind half of my pillow, the next morning, half my head hurts. Reached school, first lesson, PE= Tennis. I got smack by the tennis ball real hard. I was telling Sarah, i got birthday bashed. After that i felt high and my head felt like i had a hangover. What a sucky feeling.

When back to EVSS, miss Mrs Ng, Mr Goh and Mrs Chua. Talked to Mrs Ng, she is awesome, i love her, she made me like maths. I miss her lessons , all the dirty jokes, all the funny nick names( i dun take them to heart). She used to call me turkey brain. I would laugh it off. She is a awesome teacher, very comical.

After that me and XInyi headed out to orchad road, to shop stuff like that , had fish and CO for dinner with my family. Oh dang, can't upload pics

I will upload another day

TOodles

Rachel

helpless

2009-08-31T00:42:00.003+08:00

the feeling of helplessness engulf me

as i strugle to do the right thing

i hate this feeling i hate asking for help

yet i am compell to do so eveytime

I swear i dun understand anything on my differentiation worksheet. Everytime i have to ask for help. I hate this stupid feeling, i hate feeling helpless, like i can't get anything right.

Oh well

On a lighter note

Happy birthday to myself

TOodles

Rachel

I have been considering

2009-08-23T15:53:00.001+08:00

This few days and week have been very trying for me. It is very tiring to sleep for 4 hours and then wake up to continue on with more of school and work,i really need a life, i desperately wanna go shopping one of the days. Hopefully sept hols, anyway Blogger is having it's own issues and maybe i should change to live journal or something like that but on the other hand i can't bear to leave 5 years of written history aside and cancel them away, i am really considering changing to another service provider. Oh well wait around and see

TOodles
Rachel

Is it you, the one i have been waiting for?

2009-08-12T20:33:00.000+08:00

Each time i stare into those eyes of your
the spark that i get, wipes away all your flaws
leaving me to regret once more

that marks one chapter to my life, anyway i have not post for very long.i am so sorry. anyway my life has been quite screwed with teachers and parents hounding me for homework and doing extra work, i am trying to organize my life now in order.

My recent achievements
- 2U, 3S and 1E for mid terms
- 4U,1S and 1E for mid terms
- completed a mini triathalon
- had my first E learning (after a thousands of year)
- Met new people
- sign up for another 5 km Great eastern woman's run

I think this is what happen recently in my life, anyway blogger the toolbar is changing , which is bad

TOodles
Rachel

fats

2009-07-08T21:32:00.002+08:00

Hi

I think all my life, my fats have bothered me, they are like a constant nightmare I cannot get rid off, sometimes I wish I could wake up and see myself being normal again. I have always read bout ppl who would get eating disorders and I told myself that that would never happen to me. I love food too much to give it up. Even though I am excercising now, I just put on more weight than lose it. Times like this mak Me feel like being aneroxic. I mean. If it makes me look better why. Yet it is tough, maybe one day I will fall down that path but not today,bacause of my looks and size, I have really given up a lot of things mentally, I guess in this superficial world,you won't anything with a beautiful heart, cause peoplelook at you from your outside.This has bothered me all my life, and if given a chance i will get rid of it once and for all, that is why I would go for plastic surgey if given a chance to. I just give up.

TOodles
Rachel

Wild Child

2009-07-02T23:46:00.002+08:00

Hey,

Recently have been quite coop up, things are happening and i feel like a freaking no lifer, the best part are all the parties tempting me all this while. First butterfactory , now St james powerstation. The best part, My wild side is coming out very soon, Everytime i party once during my hols, it is a night that i really enjoy all that and go crazy with the music that bring my feet along. I mean now i wanna do this stuff, i have people to stop me all over and not go with me.

Even though i hold a goody goody 2 shoes rept, i still have my wild side, to do everything crazy for once . Not my best rept, but i love the thrills and the fun of it, living on the high life. I will still come back down . Just one night all i am asking. now a simply stay out is no longer as good as it was. somehow people are just disappearing all over. I am tired and seriously i need a life.

Tomorrow last paper get over and done with.

Physics can kiss my ass goodbye

TOodles
Rachel

Exams

2009-06-28T23:08:00.001+08:00

First time in my life, i dun feel i have done enough for exams, i feel so nervous and fustrated. Even though i spend the whole week studying, it is never enough. I can't write a proper essay for econs, i am worried i did not put what mr low say into use. My maths is half done, i only know the theories but know nuts bout application and i am not confident bout chem.What am i gonna do.I really feel so upset and wish someone got H1N1 so we could have one extra week to study . i just need that week so i can try to catch up on what i really do not understand. Anyway i am prepared for U, I have no idea what to do for my econs especially.

Bye
Rachel

Transformers

2009-06-24T23:41:00.002+08:00

Hey all,

ok before i get to the topic of today i shall just update all, I fell down yesterday while training for triathlon on my bike, i seriously like flew out, so now i look like a ninja with elbow and knee pads. overall i hope i recover soon enough and i seriously look like a goof ball.

On to today's topic, transformer. I seriously have never watch the show and never took interest in robots, cars , guns or war. so watching this show was like very new to me. like some swaku cause the guys make me go watch. so i had to be " one of them". I thought it was boring at first but then the show was nice and it was quite thrilling so i jump in my seat several times la.The best part was i da pao my dinner in, then i tie too tightly, then i ask shean yang help me open, i bought 2 drinks and ask him to help me open, after that i needed to go to the toilet but it was during the thrilling part where sam was bringing the matrix to optimus prime. who is the last desecdant of the primes. That part was thrilling. There were touoching moments where the super old, super chao lao decepticons turned autobots gave up his parts and sacrifice himself for optimus went the bad guy stole the matrix from optimus. Overall this movie really change my perceptive on how not to judge a movie by what it is about. Usually i just watch teen/ chick flicts. I know it is not exactly what people call a great movie but i just enjoy movies that do not make me use my brain. However a show that i never really like , made me change my mind well.

Oh yeah and even though i talked bout optimus prime, i still feel bumble bee is the best. he is really cute when he talks to sam plus. he is quite strong. he totally shredded one of the decepticons and left his bones. plus his loyalty to sam makes him my favourite. Bumble bee is really sam's sidekick aside from megan fox

Speaking of which, i finally seen who is megan fox, haha ok she is quite hot la( i am a girl and i say this) . But pls enough of the gagaing over her and i doubt the rumors were true.

Lesson learnt: never judge a movie by what it flims , it may hold values that you should see.

Real lesson learnt: DUN DRINK TOO MUCH WATER, if not you will feel tempted to miss the good parts in the movie .

That's all

Thanks
Rachel

When an empty heart is happy

2009-06-17T00:24:00.002+08:00

Hey people,

I am back from japan, that is great.First off i would like to say sorry for not blogging, too busy to but I will try to update once in a while. Japan photos are up on facebook, I wonder if I could link it down.ok secondly I would like to thank who have given me wise words bout. Liking someone, the good news is I no longer like that guy, cause I realise I liked him for his looks, and not his character. Liking him for his looks would make me as shallow as him, as he likes another girl for her looks. Japan woke me up and gave me time to think through. The double good news is ,for the first time in my life, my heart is empty, I am in love, not jumping into liking someone else and that is a good think, I am gonna concentrate on my dream. So all pls stop being worried for me, there is something I have learn, it may sound familar

"If a guy is interested, he would make the first move and go all out"

That what I have learn and I guess I have become stronger.Now bout school, I seriously hate homework, cause it is killing me and it is tiring, but I choose this so oh well. Anyway I feel damn guilty bout not studying for 3 days, that is bad

That all I have folks as you can see what a nerd I turn into

TOodles
Rachel

another emo post

2009-05-27T00:13:00.003+08:00

my emotions overwhelm me, this place seriously has become a place for me to let go my emotional distress , but yet readers dun like the fact that i am posting emotional stuff, these few months in JC taught me a lot, they show me what this world is, they taught me to cope with tons of thing physically, emotionally and mentally. I hope i have grown stronger over all the experiences.

Yet loving remains the same, i piss xinyi off with my lousy characteristic problems, i am too tired. Below is what the sums up my emotions.

i am tired of being all alone
and the solitary moments makes me want to come back home
-secondhand serenade your call

I remember the days we spent together
were not enough
and it used to feel like dreaming
except we always woke up
never thought not having you
here now would hurt so much
- FM static Tonight

I got tired of waiting
Wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you is fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town
-taylor swift, love story

it is always like being tired and remembering, being painful most of the time

Anyway i am going japan from the 30th may to the 6th June. all miss me ok, anyway TPCO all the best for panorama, i will be there in my heart to support you guys.

TOodles
Rachel

Love is like the wind, you can't see it , yet you know it is there

so far...

2009-05-12T22:21:00.002+08:00

hey all

school has been very stressful for me, i seem to falling under all the pressure that there is there, but i chose this path and i shall finish it till my A levels. Aside from that, i just finish my SYF.

SYF training was tough, as it we had to stay back till 9 pm in school and i had to stay up till 2-3 am in the morning to do my homework,which i am rather slow at.That why i am sick now

i have come to accept the school life here at JC, i thank god for the great friends i have made, my classmates and CCA mates whom have given their concern over me constantly,they are mainly the reasons why i like school a lot better than i used to. Everyday is a different feeling in school. A less tense day would be wed and fri.

SYF has sort of destroyed my passion for music. I realise that if music is played under stress pressure and expectation, it will completely destroy the passion for creativity and freestyling. I need to develop back the passions for music.It is so important to be as music is the only thing that sees me thoroughly through. It does not lie bout my feelings, it brings about how i feel and my character anad personality in it's song. It tells my fears , weakness and strength. It accepts me for my flaws and strength, that why i love music so much.

I am thinking of taking music theory, once again considering on taking on the music route. to do compositions and doing the thing i love most.Maybe i should get a job at a music store this year, as maybe a assiatant or something like that.

that all i have

TOodles
Rachel

sweet dreams

2009-05-08T00:11:00.002+08:00

It is only when you are truly tired
Your dreams get sweeter
Too sweet till you never wanna wake up again

TOodles
Rachel

you ate part of my heart?

2009-05-03T00:54:00.002+08:00

Lost for words to desrcibe how i feel
My feelings run dry
I am too tired now
just weary and worn out

I woke up this morning feeling the feeling of emptiness in my heart, i felt like i have lost something i treasured a lot, but yet i can't figure what i had lost or what i was feeling. It was like someone ate part of my heart. something missing, recently my emotions are giving me loads of problems in life.
I will try to blog about something more meaningful next time

TOodles
Rachel

i wished

2009-04-27T03:17:00.000+08:00

I wish whatever you type was real
It makes my heart does flips, jumps and somersaults
Apparently it was all a faccade.

When I walk away you always do something that makes my heart stay

TOodles
Rachel

outta love

2009-04-26T00:57:00.002+08:00

Hey all,

I guess I wanna sort my life out, I wanna get things straight. I am out of the love cycle,I am so tired of all this bull-crap that I am given all the time, so I shall give up,I am too tired of staring at him, trying to make some convo with a girl that, I thnk he likes.I can't anymore heartbreaks, I will just crack.

I need to build up my heart, so strong that no one can hurt it, no one can make me feel love once more,I need to be so strong that I know I will not jump or feel akward when I see you.I need to make my self so strong that people do not get to hurt me.

Little side notes

TOodles
Rachel

fly me to the moon and let me play among the stars pls

2009-04-24T23:55:00.001+08:00

Hey all,

I feel so screwed up with my life, I dun like going home, I dun wanna go home, I am just tired of the yelling and screaming when I reach home,I tired of seeing raina and mum and dad fight, it is no longer peaceful, I am tired of living here, I dun feel home, I think my family is screwed up, they have problems and they dun tell each other all they do is PMS infront of each other, how tiring can that get when I return home from a stressful day in school and all they are doing is giving attitude to each other.I am so moving out, I can't live with them anymore, I can't stand the added stress.when I get into a uni, I will move to a hostel, I am just too tired for all this stuff. With the addition of schoolwork.

I am tired, I truly am, I wanna get away from you, sometimes I blame myself for knowing you. Knowing you makes me feel both happy and confuse at the same time,I feel happy when you talk to me, but when you talk to that other person, I just keep telling myself you like her better than me,I want to know what you truly think. I feel like this is one of those added stress that I put on myself, yet I can't remove it , cause my heart does not change overnight, if I ask you to hate me, will that make me feel better.

School work sucks, all I think about is homework constantly, day after day I am worrying about how to complete the day's homework, if I dun I will panick, I hate this feeling.

I need a break, break from family , from that guy and from schoolwork, I am truly tired.

TOodles
Rachel

war tragic ending

2009-04-10T01:30:00.003+08:00

hey all,

just to let you know my previous post was some sort of reflection post and not a emo-sad post but a emo-reflective post. I have learn alot and grown stronger, so dun worry ok.

I was watching Chi bi 2 , awesome show, love the graphics,love the story line and the show.This war shows are awesome, yet they depict another part of human nature, the greed and ambitiousness of human life, wars are the worse plight in a country, because it is not the soldiers that are tragic, but their wife and mothers. Tons of men go to war, yet in war no matter win or lose, Soldiers will still die,eventually it is their wife and mother that feel the hurt, the loss and the grievance of the death of their love ones. This is how sad war is, and each time i see those soldiers die, i think to myself, did they truly give their life for this or were force to do this job. Sometimes they go for weeks without seeing their family and love one. I don't like war for this reason and i think it is a stupid way to settle your hatred for each other.

my thoughts wonder of to you randomly, i wish to keep distances in order not to hurt myself, yet another half of me wants to know you better,this feelings keep coming, i can't stop it, i wish i did not have a heart, then i won't know love, then i won't feel this way each time i think of you.I wished

TOodles
Rachel

PI

2009-04-07T01:11:00.002+08:00

hey all

PI is killing me but i got my first draft done and submited, happy la. haha. I felt as it i have no life, i just go to school, come home face homework, go to school come home face homework,i am so bored i really hope to have a holiday where i can sleep and do what i want, and not have to worry about assigments to complete, deadlines to meet, i am tired yet i can't give up.

my mind drift back to the past, back to where we used to be, when we would hold hands and walk down the street, my voice chattering all the way, you just nod your head and listen.
months pass, we ran out of topics to share, to find out that we were completly 2 different people in life, to my horror and dismay.Hugs and kisses still had their warmth, yet i have grown cold of you,your voice going over the same topic, in my mind ignored completely, i used to say i will wait for you,yet i can't go on anymore,waiting for you has become my chore.I used to say i would love you forever, i can't carry on anymore, cause the flame has been burned out, the love has grown cold,all that resides were all the foreign memories lock up in a far far away, sometimes i miss kisses and hugs, yet i want none from you.You broke my heart and taught me a lesson on how to truly love, now i am all stronger and i am free, no longer bounded by the chains and wounds you left behind, i have learn to love and grow from there,i am happier and free, Thank you for the lessons you taught me, and things i have learn from you, i am alot wiser and i know who to choose.

i have been outta a relationship for almost 2 years and completely forgotten him, i dun need him anymore, all that is left is a thanks you

To a certain person, someone i am standing at the corner watching, i am always behind of you and you most prolly never see the true me, we talk , we laugh, we joke , yet you would never know that i have fallen in love again,sometimes distancing myself would be the best, yet i see you everywhere, i look for you in a crowd wherever you maybe.Sometimes it scares me to know that i would never have the guts to say i like you.Maybe one day , we will see.

feelings run out tonight once more as i sort my life out

TOodles
Rachel

school

2009-03-28T21:49:00.002+08:00

hey blog

yesterday i lost my voice, as in i could not talk, oh well then went to go play LAN with cca mates, quite dumb la, cause i no voice then still play LAN but i told them i will go la, but play a while only after that go see doctor then the doc gave me medicine and antibiotics. Now i feel better la cause i can talk and scream, i really hope i can sing tomorrow. Oh well, my main aim is to finish my homework now, i feel like i dun study enough but everyone tells me i mug like nobody's business.

I am tired la and i am feeling really confuse, it feels like one of the nights i wanna cry for no apparent reason, wanting to just bursting out and do what i want la, that all i have la

TOodles
Rachel

tired of school

2009-03-23T23:49:00.003+08:00

hey all

school work sucks and i have tons , with loads of homework, but i got great friends oh well plus point to go school, tomorrow econs test wish me all the best ok on a lighter note

i dun stare at the computer like this ok

TOodles
Rachel

fake plastic world

2009-03-18T23:29:00.002+08:00

Suddenly the world seem so fake to me.I was watching the chinese show yi qie wan mei.There is this girl who is like fat,but she has a good heart.In my mind,fat people are never really love,that why I no longer believe that human love exist,everyone is just so fake, you must be good looking, thin and pretty to be accepted.Suddenly confidence within me disappeared.I just can't figure out what this world wants.People with outside and no beautiful heart.

Oh well this is a rant la and not directed at anyone,

Stop dreaming cause you know love never comes

TOodles
Rachel

Magnificent Redefined

2009-03-18T00:10:00.001+08:00

Tonight in the night sky, i saw something with different hues of colours, it was beautiful.I saw the stars in the night sky, the whole sky filled with stars. Stars of different sizes and shape, some dimmer, some brighter.The whole night gave me a feeling of comfort and serenity.It reminded me of the beauty of the lord.If stars were so beautiful, how much more beautiful are we, as we worth more than stars and how much more beautiful is the lord himself.There and then i felt like lying on the breakwaters and staring and falling asleep under the beautiful creation the lord has made,I totally fell in love with the sky.On the sky inscribe the magificent of the lord, that were i fell in love again, just admiring the beauty of creation makes me love him more.

Thank you all mighty lord

Oh well for non christian, all i gotta say is that the night sky at ECP is really beautiful, go there with your boyfriend or girlfriend haha

Toodles
Rachel

tired and stress

2009-03-01T00:29:00.002+08:00

dying from the stress that is killing me, somehow school work never finishes,my hours in school are uncountable and i am so freaking stress, trying to live up to what everyone expects from me, trying to be whatever people want me to be.I hate this i am just super piss and upset. I wanna burn out asap so i can run from all this.

i am too tired, i never get to sleep in for the whole week.and I hate the undo able tutorial question, they are like not for people to do one lor, oh well i choose this path, now i have to suffer the wrath of it.Plus i have so many things coming in from my parents and people around me.They want everything done, I can't do everything.

on a second note.I wish i was born a boy. that way people won't care bout what is happening to me.I wish i could fight and own people at games,I wish i have the brains to do crazy things and everyone claims i am crazy, i wish i could own a PSP, X Box, WII all at the same time without working hard, lastly i wish i was a boy so i can eat everything and then shit them out without storing anything.

GOD give me strength for the next 2 years

TOodles
Rachel

kek's birthday

2009-02-18T23:53:00.000+08:00

yo people,

karen's birthday was not celebrated on the actual day, so we celebrate it on 14 feb, which is valentines day, when to NYNY, to eat.Sianz the cute waiter was not there but nvm it was fun.Then when to walk around, and fabian(Si ying's friend) met us half way, walk around talk chit chat, laugh and watch couples whisper sweet nothings to each other. Oh well it is just valentines la. hopefully next year can celebrate with someone meaningful( not that you guys are not meaningful to me ok)

Oh yeah i got a scar on my arm from baking Kek's cake, not i emo ok

slowly see pics

kek and xinyi

amos, still the same

valentine's gift from si ying

si ying and kek

amos and joshua trying to act like killers but they fail la

oh this is given by xinyi girlfriend ok

kek's birthday cake

TOodles
Rachel

camp

2009-02-15T23:10:00.002+08:00

valentine was fun, spend with Siying, kek, xinyi, amos, joshua and fabian(sy's friend). i did enjoy la, making fun of people, coming up with all the nonsense i have.i was reading nelson's post and suddenly i just wonder how is it like to actually enjoy being my someone, looking at them laugh. just smiling cause they are happy,i just sometimes wonder.For someone who has been outta love for 2 years i do miss that feeling sometimes, even though my heart is suppose to be with someone else, i just miss that feeling of being silly in love.

Oh well i still love the singleton life, love to be free.anyway i am going camp and coming out on wed so wish me all the best. anyway i won't reply sms till wed

sweet anointing feel this place, i am found in your embrace

TOodles
Rachel

school so far

2009-02-11T23:20:00.002+08:00

so far school life has been OK, trying to mix with my CG(civics group), it is kinda hard, everyone has their cliques and i felt kinda lost.i need to make friends with people in my CG asap, cause i hope my CG is as bonded as my SRJC OG. like after school go out with them, study together and stuff like that.

Speaking bout my OG in SRJC, i miss them alot, i miss everyone, elysebeth, for all the fun, jia xian (the addict) for all the funny jokes, Kelly for talking too much, Darren for disturbing jia xian, nelson for sitting there and not laughing when i suan Kelly, miss the girls too like kar ling, joanne, vivian and many more all the small moments makes apart of my life.I wish my CG is as good as my OG

There was orchestra practise at bout 3, i came early actually, it was fun cause today was orientation, i was and still am in guan yue(wood winds), we played wacko to know everyone names, there were a total of like 6 JC1 including me however i know the seniors. pei qi my senior got sabo by SL,yan ming. super funny then yan ming had to do forfeit so we make him solo yue liang dai biao wo de xin in front of the new J1, super funny after all the coaxing and begging by us then he played 2 lines.

After that we had to know everyone so we played double wacko,i was in the inner circle and yan ming was on the outer circle. He was like giving me the evil face and then saying he would wanna sabo me cause i suggested he solo the song, in the end i did not end up getting wack but i did scream quite abit and i started whacking yan ming when people call my name. After that was some flag game which i found was funny cause chairman celement had to give instruction and they were hillarious but then Guan yue lost so we had to sing a song la.

had sectionals from 7 -8.45 , i got transferred into bang di, i hope i brush up my high notes cause my diaphragm has weaken gotta train overall was fun la, i miss my days in CO when i would do crap and junior all laugh at me,oh well now is my time to relived the days

anyway that all for the night

TOodles
Rachel

i am crazy

2009-02-07T22:02:00.003+08:00

ok today i had lunch buffet at MOMOYA, no photos cause we all were too busy eating,we as in me, zhi yong, kevan and johnathan, eat loads of eel and fish. After so i felt fat, so i went crazy and punish myself by running for half an hour straight, it has been some time since i actually ran.The bottom line is dun be crazy like me cause the after effect is that you woulf feel like fainting, which i do now, anyway i got into TPJC

photos i had in SRJC

our OG group

TOodles
Rachel

TPJC

2009-02-05T23:08:00.001+08:00

i am depress upset and worried that i would not get into TPJC, i desperately wanna get into that school, tomorrow is the last day

LORD I PRAY YOU GIVE ME A WAY TO GET INTO TPJC THAT ALL I AM ASKING

TOodles
Rachl

quizzes

2009-01-31T00:14:00.002+08:00

Whats your color? 95%

Multiple

You love all colors.Youre truly creative and colorful. Every color is your type and all that you can name is what you like.

What Color fits you?
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What type of person do you attract? Your Result: You attract unstable people! Congrats, you are an 'insane' magnet, and you probably have no idea why. Something about your mix of styles, how you walk not just 'one' lifestyle, but appear to have a foot in them all. To the insane, you appear to be a beacon of hope and they will flock to you, like it or not. But, they ARE insane. Lucky for you, the insane tend to be the best sexual lovers, just the rest of the package deal may not be for you.
You attract artsy people!
You attract geeks!
You attract rednecks!
You attract Yuppies!
You attract models!
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i lazy to do quizzes le

TOodles
Rachel

lost and changed

2009-01-29T01:07:00.001+08:00

I AM NOT GONNA BE NICE AND BUBBLY ANYMORE. TITUS IS RIGHT, I AM TOO NOISY SO I SHALL JUST BE QUIETER

TOodles
Rachy

CNY second day

2009-01-27T23:47:00.004+08:00

LEONA LEWIS AND ALEXANDRA BURKE are the most awesome singers, and i wanna sing like them

ok that was a side note. main point is that, i feel i need to brush up on my Cantonese. Even though i am a teochew i dun feel anything like a teochew, i can't even speak teochew. oh well i feel more like a cantonese, when i hear people speak, i know what they are talking, when i eat cantonese food, i feel at home.it just has a sense of endearment to me cause my grandparents speak cantonese and brought me up speaking it too.But now that they have left i dun really use it and therefore i forgot really how to speak.So when i look at my uncles ad aunties, i am like:" wow they can speak dang well wish i was like them". Haha overall this calls for a cantonese nanny. Or maybe i should just move to hong kong. oh well

anyway check this out

Chun heng is right, she is awesome and so is leona lewis. this is such a awesome song

TOodles
Rachel

mixed blood or pure

2009-01-26T20:51:00.002+08:00

well the controversy of whether i am mixed blood or not has been around all the time. Oh well it happen...

my mum and I were sitting at the airport in Malaysia, going to some where, it was one of the church trips.Suddenly she said i was partially Malay, cause my grandmother's grandmother is malay, so that was 6 generations ago.At first i was quite upset cause i thought being pure blood was cool, but after that i thought being mixed blood was better.

Today during CNY at ah ma's house. Grandma will tell Grandmother's story. then the story twist and it did not make sense as there were no teochew Baabaa, cause noya were honkien only and they did not speak dialect.

Now i am abit confuse,so am i mixed blood or not

TOodles
Rachel

o level results

2009-01-16T01:24:00.002+08:00

dang yo,

haha well monday was kinda nervous, cause i was collecting results, on my way back to school everytime someone will ask me bout my results and make me more nervous.but in the end my score is not ver pretty but in the end i am thinking of goning jc so well wish me luck

TOodles
Rachel

empytiness

2009-01-12T00:41:00.004+08:00

suddenly you are not there anymore, i somehow feel so left out. i feel like i have no life.I can't go with people, no one really bothers.they all have their little world, am i. belong no where.I dun feel like someone. i just think about people around me and they have somewhere where they go, they have people to hang out with. i don't.

am i plunging back to the dark days i used to have when i was 13 and 14. where i saw no one to rely on. where i was bleeding both inside out . where i could not see where i was going. i don't wanna go back there. yet i feel like i am still going there. I am scared, i just fear so much, all this years i have been on my own, time to time lean on someone yet i am still on my own. i just have to keep walking.

anyway those people usually dun read what i write so i dun care bout this shit la. i just feel so lonely in church

TOodles
Rachel

hols were great

2009-01-04T23:37:00.002+08:00

oh well hols have been great for me, however i still have not found the life fullfilling experience i want, however i have got to know people better, got to make more new friends whom i dun really talk to. know others secret and to enjoy myself being with them.

oh well so myy hols where quite good like from our disbanded cell stayover to le grande and meeting chun heng to stayovers at julian place and with dione staying over and to celebrating raina's birthday to new cell outting watch night service and a bunch of them camping at my place, playing wii and sleeping late. going out soon with si ying and chin leong to the zoo, will blog bout that.

oh well i still want an adventure in life like going overseas with a few good friends exploring different things of different culture.Maybe i should do something nice like spend my time contributing to society, speaking of which , maybe i should go donate blood, kinda afraid of the needles too. anyway so far my life has been great cause of the people all around me telling me things giving me chances and allowing me to learn from them

Thanks

TOodle
Rachel

my 50 blessings

2009-01-01T23:41:00.000+08:00

sometimes i feel like my blog is like so dull, even my life is dull. since i am bored, so bored and dull, i shall, COUNT MY BLESSINGS

ok all this things i wanna thank god, cause without him i won't be here to thank him
I WANNA THANK GOD THAT
1.i am alive and kicking
2.i have turn 16( after waiting for 16 year, finally)
3.i have the chance to study
4.i am able to eat
5.i have food to eat
6.i am able to do my daily activities without being disturb( aside from raina disturbing me)
7.i have a roof over my head
8.i have a bed to sleep in
9. i have a toilet to do my business in
10.i have clean water to use
11.i have nice and good clothes to wear
12.i have great hair products to use
13.i have great parents that feed me and make fat
14.i have a annoying little sis
15.i have great friend around it
16.i have great church mates
17.i have a place to worship god
18.i can worship god freely
19.i am living in a great and safe place
20.i talk for days freely and no one stops me
21.i crap, dance and sing as and when i wanna
22.i have a mouth to scream, shout and yell my head off
23.i great public transport
24.my parents have a car to drive us around
25.i know the lord god
26.i know where i would be after i die
27.i know i can depend on god always
28.i know that i have really good friends that i can hang out with
29.i have a cell to go to
30.i have times to go out and enjoy myself
31.i have hands and legs to walk and to do things myself
32.i have enough money to shop, change my hair colour and perm it
33.i am not disabled and able to move about
34.i can cook pasta
35.i have mp3, handphones and other electronic gadgets
36.i have weird cousins that i enjoy to be with
37.i have TV characters to yell at
38. i am able to dance and party till morning
39.i am able to have a proper life
40. i do not have my airport being close down
41. i can go overseas safely
42.i can play WII and laugh all day
43.i ride a bike
44.i have great friends to be with
45.i have people to do crazy things with
46.i always have challenges ahead of me
47.i have people to argue with
48.i get to count down at a soya bean stall with a crazy bunch of people
49.i have 150 dollars for my eagles awards
50.this is the 50th point of counting my blessings and i survived it

sorry for not posting anything, i just could not think of anymore things

P.S happy new year everyone=D

TOodles
Rachel

le grande

2008-12-26T04:54:00.003+08:00

oh well people i have not blog for a long time, as for hong kong trip, i had upload the photos in my facebook account, guys go check it out.

yesterday was le grande, both exciting and torturous, exciting cause i wanted to see the turn out, torturous cause i had to serve at the bar.i realise that i would have failed if dad was not there, and i was not ready to be independant,sometimes i wanna do things my way without help, i want to prove my worth of being able to do things without people helping me, alas i failed. i shall come back stronger.

i met some new people and some old people.there were 6 that accepted christ in the end and 2 that wanted to attend our cells. That good news to me. After Le grande, i went to meet chun heng, the great himbo, have not met him for like 4 years to have a serious talk la, cause when we were younger we would seat beside each other and fight, he would sing songs all the time to torture me and of course i would poke him.so was catching up with him and another guys.Now chun heng is going into ACJC and calling himself a himbo.

anyway i know i have not been updating, just did not feel like it oh well i wanna quickly finish up my profile

oh by the way, i would be a ugly duckling for sometimes, cause my contact lens expire DAMN IT

TOodles
Rachel

i am flying off soon

2008-12-08T01:38:00.000+08:00

hey peeps,

i will be flying off soon, like 4 am today.

sometimes i just wonder like am i trying too hard to get communicate with people. the thoughts bout this just makes me upset la.Have you tried so hard to be there for someone, and sometimes you try so hard, but ultimately it does not work. I feel tired, i am not there for people to call me when they need me and throw me aside when they don't. Thoughts just keep running in my head.I think i need to keep calm and talk things over. alright anyway for all you people out there, don't call me from the 8 to 17 dec. anything , e-mail me at mystery_metamorphing@hotmail.com

sometimes, you seem so near, yet you are like so far at other time

TOodles
Rachel

yick ting birthday

2008-11-28T20:49:00.012+08:00

this is for yick ting's birthday,we celebrated on the 27 even though the actual date was on 29, we spend the day preparing for her birthday and then at night we alvis and celeste went to surprise her while me and xinyi went to queue at aston for dinner, we had great dinner and the food was good. overall i enjoy myself and so did donkey.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DONKEY

Aunty style xinyi

xinyi's classical nerd look

killer face

trying to be funny

yick ting's classic face

the amount of tartar sauce i used

the cake me and xinyi did for yick ting

yick ting looks like a puffer fish haha

TOodles
Rachel

quiz

2008-11-18T12:41:00.003+08:00

quiz from xin yi

1. Pick a word that begins with the first letter of your name .
~Random

2. Your ex shows up randomly at your house , what do you say ?
~dun beg me to take you back

3. How many bedrooms are in your house ?
~2 very little hor

4. Is there a reason for your profile song ?
~i dun have a profile song, i find them annoying

5. I bet you're missing someone right now ?
~not someone loads of people

6. Do you hate the last girl you were talking to ?
~who is the last girl i talked to ?

7. Who was your last text message from ?
~Titus

8. What time did you wake up this morning ?
-~like 11 am(piggy)

9. If someone liked you right now , would you want them to tell you ?
-i would if i had the guts to and i feel that i am ready for rejection

10. Did you mean it when you said ' i love you ' last ?
~i think i meant it,but i may not keep that promise

11. Is it okay if you kiss people when you're single ?
~must see who is it

12. What is wrong with you right now ?
~i have many things wrong with me

13. Do you think you'll be married in 10 years ?
~ maybe i hope so

14. Would you kiss someone to make your ex bf/gf mad ?
~maybe

15. Do you believe exes can really ever be ' just friends ' ?
~ya i am friends with my ex now

16. Do you use t9 , word or abc ?
~i use t9

17. Do you tell your mom everything ?
~haha,nope

18. Who was the last person you cried in front of ?
~aiya dun remember, my crying not very glam leh

19. Have you told anybody you loved them today ?
~nope

20. How's your ex doing ?
~suffering and slogging his ass off

21. Who can you trust ?
~ chen xinyi and some other people

22. Do you love the person you last thought of ?
~i dun think i love him , i think i like his, that all

People who are tagged to do th quiz .
1 Raina
2 Aly
3 Grace
4 Marky
5 Rosie
6 Alan (brother-in-law)

damn i can't think le la

TOodles
Rachel

CO BBQ

2008-11-17T14:27:00.005+08:00

i actually wanna post on co photos, so i think i would do that. CO BBQ

why are my shoes on the floor

alright that all

TOodles
Rachel

i feel fat

2008-11-13T19:13:00.004+08:00

oh my, it is been a long time since i actually talk bout this,i feel FAT. i dunnoe, no matter how much i try, i dun lose weight. so irritated.Today got suan by a number of people bout my hair, they say i look like i just wake up. At first, i could tolerate it, but then after that got suan more, i felt like i can't take it, i felt it was insulting, i dunnoe is it my fault or theirs. it is me being sensitive, or just them getting overboard making me feel insecure bout myself, anyway i never really think i was secure bout my looks, i never felt happy bout myself, doing so much trying to make myself feel better each time, everytime someone makes me feel insecure.I don't even feel like talking to them, i think tomorrow i would just act like nothing happen, but if it happens, i think i would be more careful.

haven i like done this s many times, nvm i shall just do the top part cause the bottom part i do before
Q1. The person who tagged you was?
xinyi

Q2. Your relationship with her?
my girlfriend haha

Q3. Your 5 impression of her?
caring, kind,tolerant of people,appreciate her friends,loves me for me

Q4. The most memorable thing she has done for you?
hmm wrote me many letters, and loads of stuff

Q5. If she becomes your lover, you would...
love her like nuts

Q6. If she becomes your lover, she needs to improve on?
not being too over caring,

Q7. If she becomes your enemy, you would...
tie her in a sack, then throw her to africa to join magadescar 2 in their wtering hole haha( can join alex the lion in dancing)

Q8. If she becomes your enemy, she needs to improve on?
her dancing cause she joining alex in his dancing

Q9. If she becomes your enemy, the reason would be?
cause she can't dance?

Q10. The most desired thing you want for her to be?
to be happy and not hve any worries

Q11. Your overall impression of her?
she is someone i can trust and tell things to

Q12. How do you think others will think of you?
i am fat, i dunnoe , ask the others la

Q13. The characters you love about yourself?
i am a typical female Chuavanist who think that women can do as well as man

Q14. The characters you hate about yourself?
sometimes i doubt myself and god

Q15. The most ideal person you wanna be?
i dunnoe. leonardo da vinci, female version

Q16. For people that care & love you, what would you wanna say to them?
thanks all this time for tolerating me and beliving in me

i think that all la,i m gonna do a post o count my blessing , thanks everyone.

TOodles
Rachel

my new hair

2008-11-11T15:45:00.003+08:00

O levels ended, and i have change me hairstyle. ok i actually wanna dye my hair brown. i would la maybe , i dun think i wanna be a redhead , even though redheads are hot, but then i think brown will look better on me la. alright i think this is all i can blog bout, sorry for the brain-friedness.

ok before the haircut.

now is the after

ok, if i look funny go ahead and laugh,

TOodles
Rachel

i am really upset

2008-10-30T18:48:00.002+08:00

i feel so sick la, recently my life is quite bad, i wanna tell her, but i can't cause we ain't that close anymore.i can't rant it to anyone. i need to tell someone my problem, i feel like crying , yet i can't. i dun feel well anymore, i need to stay strong,yet i need to lean on people.

i need to breathe i feel like throwing my problems into the bin.Then take the ka chings in my bank, fly to paris, stay with a good friend there( i will make one friend first) then i wanna go walk in the streets of paris, see the nightlife, fall in the love with the lights and of course date a few french men haha.i just wanna forget all my problem.

arg, i need somone to rely on for now, i can't tell people who are involve in my problem.arg. i got SS to study as 3 of next month is my exam.

alrighty i got to go

TOodles
Rachel

dreams that reside over in la-la land

2008-10-27T15:08:00.002+08:00

LAST NIGHT, I SLEEP, I DREAM OF YOU, AND I DID NOT WANT TO WAKE UP AGAIN.

TOodles
Rachel

All your feelings so deep inside,the moment i saw you cry

2008-10-26T21:06:00.005+08:00

you know it is been a long time since i post like some really emotional post, well i am not emo la.however being a emotional base person, i base alot on my emotions.

Alright bout my day, today was youth anniversary la.we were split up into our new cell. well we went to play games, in the morning, with my cell and lio's cell, lio was not around. i got saboed to play the first game, thanks to my cell leader,you try to get everyone to vote for me , in the end there was a draw , then james never vote, so he vote for me la. Thanks titus. Anyhoo,i actually had to get peanut butter smeared all over my face,Jared sub my last minute, then later have to throw maconroni on his face. we got the most maconroni. haha then later gotta spread jam and stuff o the bread according to colour. we got all correct, the last game was for the whole team to split into guys and girls, the girls and guys must partner. we have got extra guys, so they partner each other.then we as a team needs to eat 30 roti prata. the girls must eat 2 times of the guys. i partner ben. 2 of us were joking with like titus and jared behind la. cause i tie our shoe laces together instead of our feet so easier to walk la i ate 2.then the last pair which was guys had to eat like 10 roti pratas in 3 minutes. so titus and jared had to eat la. well we manage.However i felt that Rainy's team was more pro, roy spires and marcus were like the last then they still sitting and talking and eating slowly, super funny, they were impressive la. i felt like a pig

then service was good, i really love the song you are faithful. wanna learn how to play on piano( lenny you saw this, i give you the chords la). then eat like a pig, could not take it le so go run for half an hour, impressive eh.for someone who has not run for so long. then eat alot of rubbish again la.

now blogging i really enjoy myslef todat, one of the more carefree times in the mids of the hussle and bussle.

Cry - Mandy Moore

Mandy moore -cry
I'll always remember
It was late afternoon
It lasted forever
And ended too soon
You were all by yourself
Staring up at a dark gray sky
I was changed

In places no one would find
All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
It was then that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry

The moment that I saw you cry

It was late in september
And I've seen you before (and you were)
You were always the cold one
But i was never that sure
You were all by yourself
Staring at a dark gray sky
I was changed

In places no one would find
All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
It was then that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry

I wanted to hold you
i wanted to make it go away
I wanted to know you
I wanted to make your everything, all right....

I'll always remember...
It was late afternoon...
In places no one would find...

In places no one would find
All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
It was then that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry

this song reminds me of one person, he thinks crying is something against his nature la. so i am just reminded.Just like the chorus.
i am over and done with that feeling

I laugh when i am happy, i cry when i am sad, i jump when i am hyper, i scream when i am scared.i yell when i am angry . i wanna be truthful to my emotions

TOodles
Rachel

halloween

2008-10-25T22:45:00.006+08:00

alright people, it has been a hectic week full of exams, every day i go back to school for exams, well geog and Amaths paper 2 was kinda hard although some others say that they can do well, and get their A1, that make me kinda demoralize la. so i dunnoe but God has a will and things do not work outta his will, i need faith, trust and a tiny bits of Rachel dust, haha.

Alright halloween is coming and yes i can't spend it, cause i got exams to study for oh well, no parties to go to . so to keep everyone happy here is a scary photo haha.

yes my scary pics haha

dun laugh untill you choke ok. for the nerdy photo

ok now for a photo with Patrick star

and now other random photos

see patricks stand out from my pillow haha

happy halloween everyone haha

TOodles
Rachel

chemistry paper

2008-10-20T17:17:00.003+08:00

today is the first O levels paper, chemistry paper la. i founbd it rather ok, except that i had loads of faith in god, i did my part, do papers , read my notes.when i woke up this morning, had a slight headache, really wish i could sleep in a little more. after that read through my organic chem notes. when for lunch and for exam. when i entered the exam venue. i felt fainty and still light headed. i felt like blacking out la. then when i look through my questions and started doing them , i prayed really hard. It was at section B that i got a de javu. like i had seen that question somewhere before, in ym dreams i guess. cause that where all the de ja vu happens. anyway overall i put my faith in god and trust and believe.

i will oso be blogging on my last day yeah. alright got to go

TOodles
Rachel

4 days to Olevel

2008-10-13T20:31:00.002+08:00

hi bloggy, it is 4 days to O levels, the combine science kids have practical today, while the C5 kids stay in school and study physics, i sat with suie and she starting ask us questions that no one could answer, and in the end, i was creaming my head of haha, alright it was fun, later met up with the gang, ate lunch, all said practical suck and stuff like that. so went for lunch. and talk to kwang yang bout the Co camp. Yup i am staying over

alright up next is a rather interesting issue, both guys and girls and allowed to post their opinion,but no spamming, opinions are personal and everyone has one different one, no point getting offended over another's opinions.

If u TREAT him nicely, he says u are IN LOVE with him..
If u Don't, he says ur SUPLADA.

If u DRESS Nicely, he says u are trying to LURE him;

If u Don't, he says ur BADUY.

If u ARGUE with him, he says u are STUBBORN;

If u keep QUIET, he says u have no BRAINS.

If u are SMARTER than him, he'll lose FACE;
If he's Smarter than u, he is GREAT.

If u don't Love him, he tries to POSSESS u;

If u Love him, he will try to LEAVE u.

If u don't make love with him, he says u don't Love him;

If u do, he says ur EASY.
If u tell him your PROBLEM, he says u are TROUBLESOME;

If u don't, he says that u don't TRUST him.

If u SCOLD him, u are like a NANAY to him;

If he SCOLDS u, it is because he CARES for u.

If u BREAK your PROMISE, u Cannot be TRUSTED;

If he BREAKS his, he is FORCED to do so.

If u SMOKES, u are BAD girl;

If he SMOKES, "it's part of manhood".

If u do WELL in your exams, he says it's LUCK;

If he does WELL, it's BRAINS.

If u HURT him, u are CRUEL;

If he HURTS u, u are too SENSITIVE so hard to please.

If u send this to guys, they will swear that it's not true...but if u don't, they say u are selfish...

The moral of the story is.......

HOW STUPID GUYS CAN BE.

TOodles
Rachel

14 days to O levels

2008-10-06T17:21:00.003+08:00

alright now lets have a count down, i think it is 14 more days to o levels, and 10 more days to practical. lucky Rachel does not have practical haha. alright alright i still have to study and my physics still sucks, i have no idea how la.

recently too many things have been going on for me, i just dun feel like me, i feel like someone else, someone else trying to run from myself, i just feel so strangle

i will figure my life out soon

TOodles
Rachel

a message to xinyi( too confuse to think)

2008-10-02T19:04:00.002+08:00

dull day in my dull life,today i did something really wrong.

After reading something , i felt my heart tear into 2, my soul vaporize in the fraction of that second,i just felt so depress after school, i know whatever i have done, have hurt you and i know i will not be able to mend that hole again, i know all the"Rachel say" will stop cause they would not have a reason to say" Rachel says you". Rachel will also not say anymore, for some time, for now i am metamorphosing again, i can't let this happen again, i can't, not now, i will isolate myself from you guys to slow down my reaction , i need to in order not to change into someone like her. I am so sorry that i have hurt you all this time, If time could turn back i would not mind, if things were different we might not have this problem, if i stop changing , you would not be affected,If i could put your feelings first, we would not have to face this. There are so many what ifs, i am so sorry.

lets pick up where we left off after our exams, i need to be clear and sane to handle our friendship.Treat me how you want, cause it was my fault. Thanks, i Love you loads, xinyi.

NO AIR

2008-09-27T22:20:00.003+08:00

i am suffocating in here, sick and tired of the stuff that are thrown at me, my day was horrible, firstly, i ask linky and lenny out to go study like 2 days ago, lenny was ok, but linky can't decide, make me so piss and upset la, 2 days to decide leh , they can't decide and their indecissiveness makes me really mad, i hate it la. wanna go, go dun want, dun bother, next time i dun wanna be the nice person doing all the planning and when i plan you dun like it , voice it out, but if you got no where nice to suggest then just stick with my opinion, i am so over and done with this people , freaking upset la.

next my parents,they just keep pushing me , i can't take it, needa breathe, i know they do this for my good but then i hurts me alot, my dad keeps nagging at me, plus my little sis is like an ah lian la, she talk like the whole world owes her stuff, i dun like it , i dun wanna talk to people who are like that. I wanna lock myself in my room, i wanna cry badly, i can't take it, i wanna bawl to xinyi cause she always listens to me, i wanna rant to xinyi.

i am just so upset la, i need air, i need to be Rachel for myself, not Rachel for everyone else

TOodles
Rachel

love is a wind

2008-09-26T23:43:00.002+08:00

LOVE IS LIKE THE WIND, YOU CAN'T SEE IT BUT YOU CAN FEEL IT

thanks Nicholas sparks for writing that beautiful book,i hope i will feel it , so will you.

TOodles
Rachel

Prom: dinner & dancing

2008-09-24T22:41:00.004+08:00

well i am here to talk /rant bout prom. wei xin went through pains to get prom and many are actually unhappy bout the fact that prom is held in zouk.i dun mind it anywhere, however think bout it, firstly, people complain that the school dun wanna give us prom, so we whine like nuts,and soon we all got prom thanks to wei xin, everyone is happy, however, when people hear it is at zouk, some can't go why, for reasons i dunnoe why. but then i just feel that people should be more grateful and go.Give your support.

Wei xin, dun give up on prom, think of the people that you are gonna disappoint. People who hope that there will be prom, lets not bother bout people who are ungrateful out what you have done.

THIS POST IS NOT DIRECTED TO ANYONE

thanks

TOodles
Rachel

my day

2008-09-22T21:14:00.004+08:00

i am in a rather high mood i would say, today xinyi told a very lame joke that donkey wanted to smack her. i laugh like nuts, after school went to tell that lame joke to linky,lenny and ramdan, all hear until sianz, then i got scolded by them la, so later i told them the moral of the story and all gave me a lame look, haha made them freaking piss.Alright wanna hear my lame joke ask me ok.

this quite a long pic ago

anyway go do my stuff

TOodles
Rachel

ICC and family dinner

2008-09-20T22:16:00.009+08:00

alright today 2 events happen, ICC with coke and my family dinner, ICC was alright, saw some interesting animals and then talk to my mum's boss wife, she is a nice person to talk. Then later i found a small Tyre . then later went to visit my grandparent's niche. when Tm to eat and wait for raina, then went for family dinner . sit and laugh and i ate 5 unagi.

this is a bird that i saw in lim chu kang

pod of a mangrove plant

Dragonfly

my mum's boss and wife with our family

my tired face

mao xiang playing with the menu that look like a fan

me acting cute haha( hilarious)

we were eating unagi

tori karage

mao jie acting retarded

Retarding

we drank beer?

my uncle and mao xiang

curtain close

TOodles
Rachel

the art of french kissing

2008-09-14T20:11:00.003+08:00

i was reading a book i use michelle's kino vouchers to buy, The art of french kissing, it is a really nice book. it is actually a romance novel and i feel that it is quite a nice story, all bout this girl whose fiance broke up with her, she move to paris , stayed with a roomate who became her business partner , her business partner has a weird thing bout dating french men and then dumping them affter a first date, a learning that these french men so very good kissing. this girl also had a job as a PR to look after a french rock star who constantly got himself into trouble, so it is a adventure this girl had in paris, the city of lights.

haha i wanna go travel europe,see the whole of europe, walk down the streets of london carefreely, go up Eiffel tower and walk down around the river side, watch the light sky in paris,walk in the rich history of Rome in italy, enjoy the spainish culture and many more, that is one of my dream..

alright over all this book is very nice, my few favourites, added to my list.

alright had church, today's cell kept me pondering , bout my christian life. Got to lead a more radical chiristian life.hmmm today i just felt lost and all, i felt so pressure by my results from my prelims, i felt i lost, i did not know what to do bout my O levels,i dun even know where to go, i just felt like crying out to god.I needed to cry so badly, i needed a solution. i pray this time willl go off asap.

That all for this night

TOodles
Rachel

i am not dead

2008-09-13T23:41:00.002+08:00

ALRIGHT ALRIGHT, i am back le ok, i did not die due to excitement and happiness of my birthday , i will post my birthday presents soon and thank everyone alright, anyway my week has been bad cause i have not bee doing well for my prelims, the only thing i was happy bout is my english which i did better, i still fail a maths , e maths have not improve, physic and chem too,physics still fail la, dunnoe what to do, now have to redo my Amaths exam papers, i will try to blog soon, so sorry

TOodles
Rachel

my birthday

2008-09-01T23:17:00.013+08:00

hmm been celebrating my birthday for the pass few days, my cell gave me a shock by remembering my birthday, i thought all of them forgot bout my birthday, was kinda sad at first later i was freaking shock la.really touch by what my cell did la. went for my teacher's day hi tea, eat and laugh until i am really happy. went to run and did felt happy for my birthday.Many people wish me happy birthday haha thanks people.

today i actually ask my beloved doggy, linky, to wake me up but no he did not( horrible fellow i gotta send you to spca) Then in the end i woke up when lenny sms me bout being late. i really thought it was meet at parkway.Later all come up to my place to surprise me. i really got a shock la, all gang up with my sis, Raina, to come surprise me, after that go wild wild wet, however it rain. so ya i did not play much la. so horrible. went to have lunch and went t linky place and wait for him to get drum stick and stuff like that, me and nish were fighting over his dog whitkey , she is super cute la.Anyway threw linky's frog at xy and was laughing like hell, then went to the jamming studio to jam. not very progessive today however we can always try the next round.
after that they all went to my place, xy cooked and then we ate, later cut cake and i was quite surprise cause the cake is they make themselve one lor, so touch la, and xy only stand and watch but still she help with the decorations la. haha so 感动. after that send xy to the bus stop and walk to tanah merah with the guys. i was walking and talking to them bout life issues la. somehow talking bout it makes me think of my life issues on what i will do and stuff like that. I dun wanna think, i am not sure what to do and stuff like that, i am worried bout what will happen to me. well come home emoed and now blogging la

photos coming up

ben , claudia and me

me and mentor

look at justins mouth

my cell girls

lio and raina playing Basket ball

the dance by our church girls

my century egg porridge

me and my "wife"

super duddettes

the nike run

today's photos

that us( i am the one in the center)

that patrick i am hugging is my present from xinyi and lenny

i play acoustic?

a happy xy camming in the toilet

linky like sleeping like that

nish and lenny

linky on drums

prelims are over

2008-08-28T00:06:00.013+08:00

PRELIMS ARE OFF, and i Rachel lim am happy. cause this week is the end of prelims, teachers day celebration and best of all, MY Birthday . Yay me!!!i will be having a chaotic week ahead, i need to breathe abit though. anyway i am here to blog bout teachers day by linky's demands i have to blog, cause he say that i make him blog but i dun blog so have to blog lor.

anyway teachers day, had some workout for teachers day. i found it expectionally funny cause there were like 4 guys in some sort of boxer kinda shorts.kicking and punching, was laughing when some girls started taking photo. i found it expectionally funny. anyway later had class party, ying han and karen pangseh me and never come so i was alone la, had concert and enjoyed myself. met some seniors and then cab to Anderson. waited for teachers, my primary classmate most of them did not come. so i called chun heng and meet him haha still have not change over the years, the way he talks and reacts haha.He is a lucky ass, he got into ACJC for their DSA and his results are only slightly better than mine, that so unfair.Then met mr khoo , he was like expecting a B3 from me , so i guess my results are not impressive. talk to Mdm neo, actually i mention her name in front of some kid and they started saying loads of bad stuff bout her, then it remind me of myself, i remember i use to dislike her alot cause she was so mean to me. but if she was not like this, i would nto have made it to express le, i would not be taking my Olevels this years, so appreciate you teachers no matter how bad they are, you will see the results in your later part of life.

After that went to Ah ma's place, bathe, talk to grace, i have not talk to her for a long time. after that went ot vivo and meet the girls and talk and enjoy, laugh. Went for dinner with linna and then talk and went home, swim and go to bed.

Alright pictures coming up

the food we had

the girls who made the food

the amount of rubbish we made

this was "sold out" fast

nadera

winnie and xue ling

Dominic , with mattz

R for Rachel =D

concert

Iylia and me

R is for Rachel

ashikin, Iylia

me and Iylia

me and Iylia's birthday cake

lorena,lim shuen

raina's friend, lorena, jing rong and lim shuen

dun eat the flower la( she got the evil smile)

me with the flower

me playing piano

Grace playing piano

TOodles
Rachel

quiz

2008-08-22T23:32:00.002+08:00

List out the top 5 birthday presents that you wish for:
i want something different from the last year
something memorable
something that i will smile over
something that i will feel very touch about
something that is unique

Answer the following questions

1)The person who last tag you is...
Rainy lame porks

2)Your relationship with him/her is...
blood sister ( my only one sister)

3)Your 5 impressions of him/her:
-loves aiba hiroki to the core like crazy
- mentally unwell
- can dance like nobody's business
-eats and never grows fat( i hate her for that)
- i dunnoe she pokes me and wrestle me to wake up

4)The most memorable thing he/she has done for you so far:
being beside me during all the times

5)The most memorable words he/she has said to you:
i dunnoe... i love you( small words can mean alot)

6)If he/she becomes your lover, you will...
i dun think it is possible, it would be like a combination of incest and lesbianism

7)If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be...
she has to improve on that temper to be anyone's lover

8)If he/she becomes your enemy, you will...
throw her in the toilet bowl and then hang her on the tallest lamp post in east coast park to dry

9) If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be...
because i dunnoe she dun love me anymore

10)The most desire thing you want to do for him/her is...
find her a Japaneses boyfriend

11)Your overall impression of him/her is...
typical cause i live iwth her for like the past 14 years of my life

12)How do you think people around you will feel about you?
i dunnoe i am super random and i get sugar rushes easily

13)The characteristics you love about yourself are...
hmmm the fact that i can talk alot and the fact that i am hilarious

14)On the contrary, the chracteristics you hate about yourself are...
the fact that i have a heart for things i dun need to bother( people close to me will get what i mean espcially karen)

15)The most ideal person i wanna be is...
i wanna be like mariah Carey sing super well, i also wanna be a good scientists

16)For ppl who care and like you, say something to them
i love you guys and thanks for these moments

17)Pass this quiz to 10 people that you wish to know how they feel about you
1.xinyi girlfriend( if i you done it then no need to redo the bottom just the part on how you feel bout me)
2.joey
3.kwangyang
4.Emily
5.linc
6.chin leong
7.brenna
8.shi kai
9.Raina( the same applies if you have done it write your how you feel bout me)
10.roselle AKA yong long

18)Who is no.6 having relationship with?
chin leong? i think he is having a affair with xinyi haha joking... i dunnoe leh... maybe some pretty jie jie in the company

19) Is no.9 a male or female?
oh raina... i actually think she is a man in a women's body... a female on the outside... a dunnoe what on the inside

20)If no.7 & 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
brenna and roselle AKA yong long... cannot la brenna got MAMA le ... the roselle got alan, come on la they have 24 kids on a farm

21)How about no.8 & 5?
shi kai and linc ar... i dunnoe leh... i dun think it would be good la linky has his lenny le or nish la plus i shi kai got my boyfriend =D her Patrick star husband

22)What is no.2 studying about?
joey. pure physics and chem ( same as me)

23)When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?
kwang yang? just like a while

24)What kind of music band does no.8 like?
shi kai... i dunnoe planet shakers and hillsongs

25)Does no.1 have any silblings?
xinyi ... ya a big brother

26)Will you woo no.3?
nope he is my good tu tu haha

27)How about no.7?
maybe la cause she my ang ku keh partner( haha ang ku kueh)

28)Is no.4 single?
i think so maybe not she got a affair with brenna

29)What's the surname of no.5?
linc ... teo , mr tio haha dun bully me le la be nicer

30)What's the hobby of no.4?
i dunnnoe smile and be happy or just cook

31)Do no.5 & 9 get along?
you ask linc and raina where they get along, Raina say him a lot of times lor

32)Where is no.2 studying at?
JOey...East View Sec...

33)Talk something casual about no.1...
i love xinyi like nuts cause we are together for 4 years

34)Have you tried developing feelings for no.8?
ya but did not work la ... cause i fell in love with her husband , patrick star instead

35)Where does no.9 live at?
at bayshore in the same room at the bed near my bed ... she my little sis

36) What colour does no.4 like?
i dunnoe bright colours

37)Are no.1 & 5 friends?
ya duh... can i say they may have an affair ... haha everything to me is a affair ... the both of you pls go easy on me ... you know i just joking

38)Does no.7 like no.2?
brenna and joey like each other alot

39) How do you get to know no.2?
she is the current vice chairman of CO and i am the ex vice chairman .. so yup my beloved junior

40)Does no.1 have any pets?
a pet dolphin

41)I no.7 the sexiest person in the world?
ya brenna is the sexiest person in the world cause not one's ang ku kuehs can beat her = D haha

alright people do my quiz ar

TOodles
Rachel

Firefly ccome back to me

2008-08-21T17:33:00.002+08:00

this few days have been bad to me. i always wake up early then study until time to go school. not enough sleep and stuff like that.Somehow i feel disturb bout things around me, i feel disturb bout my future.I just having a confusion in myself. I actually sense another stage of metamorphosis coming.Some how i think a personality change. I don't know.Well felt abit disappointed today some reasons known. Overall i feel i am not gonna be the same.

anyway all my bad papers are over . i still gotta study.Somehow i just remember this song Firefly.
Thanks to linc for showing me this song.

gonna do SS if not will fail tomorrow

Firefly come back to me
make the night as bright as day
I'll be looking out for you
tell me that your lonely too
firefly come lead me on
follow you into the sun
that's the way it ought to be
firefly come back to me

TOodles
Rachel

Reflections

2008-08-16T21:48:00.002+08:00

Tonight i saw myself clearly, i saw how i have progress over the years. i saw that willfulness inside me that use to be there, now gone with the wind. i saw the pain and wounds that i bear, now they have become scars.I saw the weakness that use to accompanied my fears, they now have become something neglect, something i did not bother. i also saw the way i wrote, it was different from last time.I saw myself growing stronger from the weakness.Over years i have change, including my photos

yet somethings still remain the same like emoing certain times. going high in the middle of the night and the most famous one procrastinating lor. Haha years later will be better

there is another thing to add.

I wanna thank my heavenly father for one thing,my chinese O levels results. I really owe it all to him.Everyone who knows me, knows that my chinese highest mark since sec 1 to sec 4 is a B4.I got loads of C5 and C6 and d7. SO getting a B3 is a miracle.Plus on that day, for paper 1,the formal letter was of a mixed genre so it was either a complain or a suggestions. many students do not know what to write. i wrote what i thought was right. Compo was of a weird topic , with karen telling me that i might have misread the question. i was really scared , with paper2 not completing the questions. i was afraid i might have failed. Overall when i walked into the exam hall for paper1,my electronic dictionary died cause i forgot to bring battery, even though i did have the book dictionary but i was really slow. so thank god for giving me that B3.

i got to go

TOodles
Rachel

my list

2008-08-15T20:53:00.003+08:00

ok everyone knows my birthday is in a 27 more days. and you guys know what i want to get. prezzies haha alright here is the list

my wish list

Body shop products , preferably bath products and the conventional fruits smells like strawberry, mango, peach , papaya etc
Rachel Gibson's romance novels. actually any kind of romance novels( please let me know which book cause i might have)
useful and practical stuff like stationery haha colour pens will be nice)
go out for dinner ( please let me know which date you booking me if not then i celebrate on my own)
a big Ducky , not just any ducky ya but the yellow one that i carry all over if you have seen it, the one from the movie click( ask me before buying)
Chicken soup for the teenage soul book 2
custom made personalize stuff
patrick star plushie
or surprises
laptop folder
picture collage from good friends( that appilies if you have picture with me la)
or just a card with meaningful words

Just to let you guys know, well dun give me key chains or handphone key chains cause i have loads and i dun have alot of handphone andbags to hang them on. yes i love you guys for being my santa claus

TOodles
Rachel

Black and white

2008-08-09T19:16:00.004+08:00

well on the 8th of august to the morning on the 9th of august. I, Rachel lim jie xin went for black and white camp, and nearly KO.Went there, we were devided in to our tribes. played scissors paper stone in groups. it actually consist of like doing the actions of the object. so if it is scissors, you put your arms in a cross, stone you huddle on the floor and paper you spread yourself out the catch is that everyone in the team must do the same action and you gotta battle the other team. so the communication is a problem.we manage to win the last group as my group was group 3.

The first game was a game of finding our elements . so you gotta decode clues and find lightsticks. after that find a hidden item. this hidden item can be use in the games later. so my group became the water tribe. we were the first to complete the finding our elements game.anyway we were already kind of wet as we had to touch a box in the water so as to get the map, to find our hidden item. that was the sea water part, there were many whines from serene bout getting wet though.

The second game the whole team had to split into 5, 3,3. 5 for the 5 legged race, 3 were candlers, and the last 3 were sparkler lighters.i was one of the candlers. the first one in fact so i have to carry the candle from the beach to the bridge. all the patience needed. i manage on my second try cause the moment the fire is gone, we have to run back to the starting point to get it re-ignited.so the first one. i went all the way to the bridge and gor gor joshua started to jump. i got super piss cause i was half-way through. Ran back , yell at tim to get my candle re-lighted. i feel sorry for him.Serene and i were screaming at him just to come.After that fire tribe was on par with water( my group). but Alex lend Manda his cap and they got protection for their flame.
while i had to use my poor hands. so well i made it with amanda cheering for me, it is really nice of her even though we are in different group. so after that as fire was at the front, the lasr part of the game , was lighting the sparklers on 4 levels. you have to the light the sparkler before the light dies out. we had justin who can run really fast to do it for us. along with 2 other guys.
we made it second thanks to alex's cap.

had immunity challenege, to find the 2 necklaces.but first we need to fill yahkut bottles tie to our arms and we had to interlock hands. our tribe was the fastest to finish the filling of the bottles. however we could not find the necklaces. so we did not get immunity.Earth tribe got the necklaces, so they had to pick either back or white. one would be immunity and the other is vulnerability. so the person who gets vulnerability has to hold tofu for the next game. they pick the black necklace and gave us water tribe the white one.well the black one was immunity, so we had to carry tofu for the next round

the next game was more like a relay challenge game, as it was split into 4 parts. The first part is to use chopsticks to hold on to ping pong balls and carry it across the line. we manage to with tofu in our hands(the tofu stinks).The second part was to chose either black or white paper. We chose black and inside wrote 18 hands and 8 legs. so we had to find our way across the line.we were poured with water solutions and squeeze with orange all over ,oh ya serene and one new comer( anna's friend were tied at the end point) well they will be poured with water for the extra time we take.The third part was to rub soap all over and we rub it all over david's shirt. it was tough la. the last part was a bible quiz. we figure that if we answered wrongly, we could do the quiz faster. however serene and that new guy would get poured for every wrong question but we were all saying" aiya it is serene, dun care la just pour , then she was whining it was hilarious ya( sorry serene). in the end we won.

the last game was quite an interesting game, each tribe had a base and we had to run to other base pick up our light stick.only 8 people were allowed to play. so all the girls( there were only 4 of us) decided to go jail, a place for non-active players.So well with justin's super man speed, we won . as a group of 5 went to distract and justin got the light stick. our defence was good too. we won by the third round as each time you get a light stick it is the end of one round. so we had to collect 3 light sticks. yay did it and won first again

Later on had early breakfast, satay and cookies i love them especially the cookies.headed to dragon trail, had to do some night walk. and one guy one girl, all the girls wanted a "man guy" not a sissy type one. haha i got pair with sam goh, my old cell intern, anyway it was a good time to catch up with sam cause very long never talk to him. well he thought me how to hear sounds around and check. we heard screams in front so we roughly knew what happens. haha ignore and gave them a zombie face la. overall there were loads of screams from people. i was a little jumpy but should be ok la.

next morning, bathe and then went to meet the com for breakfast. took a bus home with titus. He was like so bored that he drop at my place which is further than his place and then later he took bus home. he drank like 4 cups of coffee la. that bad for health people. dun follow him ok. that why he can be energetic on the ride home.

that all, birthday list coming soon. so sorry

TOodles
Rachel

shanghai part 2

2008-07-31T20:41:00.008+08:00

handsome ting tong

awww he is so cute

Raina's dream bear

dad

my dessert at tang gong it is shape in a durian with a durian filling

places at xin tian di( their clarke quay)

playing with lights

playing with lights again

at the resturant

at the jap resturant

ferro rochers

elegant ting tong

the ambiance there

my cod fish that night

scenery at The Bund

ting tong, he so cute la

all the xiao long baos i eat

my manicured nails

alright tthat the whole of shanghai for me

TOodles
Rachel

SAJC CO audiions

2008-07-30T22:32:00.001+08:00

on a short note, i am going for SAJC CO auditions la. well my songs my teacher say are not up to par. and i have no idea how. nvm people pray for me alright

Show me the light when i feel the dark

TOodles
Rachel

Highness

2008-07-27T22:11:00.003+08:00

Rachel Lim is on a high
Rachel Lim is on a sugar rush
Rachel Lim must be nuts
Rachel Lim is totally unwell

haha yes quite obvious right , i am UNWELL and on a SUGAR RUSH and i am absolutely INSANE. man i am not sure why am i so happy la. anyway today went to study with girlfriend, leo , linc and patrick. disturb girlfriend like nuts then went to buy my whip cream.

I AM SERIOUSLY INSANE AND GOTTA BE SEND TO THE IMH. HAHA

you know i love you like nuts la, go figure that out

TOodles
Rachel

The Game Plan

2008-07-26T23:16:00.002+08:00

last night i was watching game plan with Raina and mum. I find it a interesting show and i think its reflects like a long lost father and daughter. I actually have watch that show before but this time with a different feeling toward the show.

The first time i watched it,i felt it was just a normal show plainly about the father losing his daughter and she comes back to acknowledge him. However my whole thinking change after after reading this book by Rachel Gibson,simply irresistible.(well kids should not read this book due to some explicit stuff, i never said explicit in which area).It is about this lady, who was gonna marry some old man, she had a change in mind and then ran off with his star player in hockey.They had a fling and then he drop her off at the airport.7 years later he found out she has his little girl and he wants to be back in her life.

i mean this story is similar to the game plan.I watch this show again, understanding, how the man feels when he wants his little girl back. I think the movie has become more meaningful when you learn the person's emotions.

Anyway that something to reflect.

TOodles
Rachel

shanghai part 1

2008-07-23T23:02:00.014+08:00

shanghai part 1

jiao lian and daughter

the kinda food we eat everyday

me reading

me and Xinyi ( my girlfriend, my nai ma and my roomie)

i think these are yao ming's but not sure

grand hyatt

the sparing boat

me and Rainy

the tea leaves can be eaten

she look like she just saw jun-on

xin xian and heng kang's birthday cake

xiang ying

gu qin

i think this is a zheng

san xian( big, medium and small)

my whole lines of gu zheng

Cat woman la

ang ku keh wrote this, guess what she wrote

close curtain

open curtain aww man i look like a retard

my random day

2008-07-20T23:45:00.002+08:00

well auditions when well. it is over anyway. Somehow i am not in my right state of mind.My emotions are like a rushing wind. they come and go as and when they like.I am really sorry towards everyone whom i have hurt. anyway i just really busy this few days. i will try to blog bout shanghai soon. lets see if i can put a random photo

this was a picture taken 2 years back.. it was one of my favourite pics

TOodles
Rachel

irritating times

2008-07-18T23:49:00.002+08:00

i am in trouble because i lost my guz zheng book la.I dunnoe what to tell teacher leh. I oso have so much on my mind. i can't seem to get rid of it.I have so much to think la.I feel so burden eveytime la.I have been hanging out with linc and leo, actually ya it is from the bridge club thing.Then pick up skills from them.Quite interesting to learn from them but so embarrassing to sing.

i dun wanna think, i just wanna be happy that all. leave me alone for heaven sake. Pls i have a life.

Anyway tomorrow is tapestry auditions. i really hope we will get through. i need to have faith.I need god to be there. I just have mix feelings for everything. I wanna live normally.

TOodles
Rachel

my immortal

2008-07-17T22:51:00.002+08:00

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus:]
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus]

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

[Chorus]

This song somehow always seems to find its way into my heart in times of emoness. i would always remember that person who showed me this song. someone close to my heart.I have always love this song. Just to sing it i feel bliss.Maybe it is not that person that i am reminded of when i sing it. yet it is how meaningful that song is. People who know me well enough, will understand to me what is bliss.

When i cry
You wipe away all of my tears
when i scream
You fight away all of my fears
and you held my hand through these years
I still have all of you

make this my wish for tonight.

TOodles
Rachel

life

2008-07-14T21:25:00.002+08:00

times just flows like the wind
before you know it
it's gone
you can't chase it
Can't run away from it
all you have to do is
flow with it

i can still remember vaguely the times, when i was younger. Going to ah ma house was always a enjoyment. something i look forward to every sunday night. It was a must go. whether was it to play gors PS2. Or talking to Grace or just seeing ahma.Everyone is growing at such a fast pace. Gor graduate. I am taking O levels this year. Grace and Raina are having steaming this year end. I can imagine life in the future. Gor with 2 kids.Me just finishing my University. Grace going into university.Raina will be in USA doing her designing. haha well i need to have a will to turn dreams into reality.

well life has been mean on me. Tapestry Auditions are this week and i am still ok. Just coming down with a bad throat , i need prayer people. Tomb raider needs prayer haha ok.

Say it again for me
cause i love the way it feels
when you are telling me that
i am the only one who blows your mind.
Say it again for me
it's like the whole world stops to listen
when you tell me your're in love
Say it again

TOodles
Rachel

my brother

2008-07-09T20:51:00.004+08:00

alright now i have something i wanna blog about. well my topic is about the times flying. ok my example is my big gor... Issac gor. i still remember like how many years ago. During CNY he was in the first few weeks of BTM, he got a fever and got to stay home and enjoy his CNY. That was like 6 years ago.Now Gor has finish school and now waiting for a job. He has been my Gor since young.Help me in maths and science and set the standards for all the Lims in the family and inspires the young ones.He has been a great christian too , serving god in ways he can.

Well i am just saying that it has been so fast that we all have grown up . Smetimes i just remember the times we spend together since young, now gor is looking for a job. Imagine in another 5 to 10 years time he has kids and have a family. Well time really flies.

all right Picture perfect time,

that us when i was a few months old,

i guess that a recent photo of him ( sorry for stealing it )

like i said. All Lims look good so ya.That the blessing in the family.Thanks to Ah gong for that.

TOodles
Rachel

a quiz

2008-07-06T20:10:00.001+08:00

1.what is the connection between you and the last person who called you?
a friend, duh

2.did you ever turn of your handphone?
nope unless i need to

3.what happened at 10am today?
chem practical on testing for cation and anions using different methods like testing for cations using NaOH and NH4 then anions must test using CO2 and Cl gas and SO4 and I and NO3.see i got pay attention in class

4.when did you last cry?
like i can't remember

5.what is your favourite thing to eat with peanut butter?
bread and bread only

6.what do you want in your life right now?
to do what whatever i want and live it well

7.do you carry your umbrella out when it rains, or do you just put on your hoodie?
i dun do both. cause i rarely where hoodies.but if i have one i will wear

8.what is your favourite thing to put on your bed?
my quilt

9.what bottoms are you wearing now?
my berms

10.what does the nicest text in your inbox says?
i can't remeber, a concern message text.

11.do you tend to make relationships complicated?
i love to watch complicated relationships

12.are you wearing something that you borrowed from someone?
no i dun think anyone can lend me anything my size

13.What was the last movie you last caught?
get smart. i laugh through the whole show

14.What are you proud of?
i'm proud of doing weird stuff haha. i am proud of being me la

15.What does the oldest text message in your inbox says?
i can't say leh later Leonard angry

16.What is the last song you sang out loud?
the way i are by timbaland and too little too late JoJo

17.Do you have any nice names?
ya,Rachy, Rae and DJ Rachel(mattz calls me that)

18.When was the last receive text message?
just now

19.What time did you go to bed last night?
erm 11 plus(quite early)

20.Are you currently happy?
ok and anxious (tomorrow MT o levels oral)

21.Who gives you the best advice?
hmmm chen xinyi my darling girlfriend. i dunnoe erm marcus chua maybe

22.Do you eat whipped cream straight away from the can?
nope, i eat it off the smoothies

23.Who did you talk on phone last night?
i dun think so, i fell asleep early

24.Is anything bugging you right now?
MT O levels oral

25.What's bugging you right now?
Duh MT O levels oral

26.Do you wear toe socks?
no

27.Who was the last person you last had a missed call from?
some unknown number la(house number)

28.Have you ever had your heartbroken?
yes

29.What annoys you most in a person?
uncultured people

30.Do you have a crush on anyone?
ya

31.Have you ever done cocaine?
no. it makes my brain slow and retard, i would not do that, if i wanna get the same results i go suck carbon monoxide, cheaper and faster

32.What is the colour of your room?
blue

33.Would you kill someone you hate for a million dollars?
no that what people who do cocaine will do(refer question 31)

34.Do you believe in the saying "talk is cheap"?
ya so talks are cheap some are not if i talk to crowd and you pay me to talk then not cheap ole

35.Who was the last person who lay in your bed?
me lor

36.Who was the last person who hugged you?
aiyo i dun remember leh i think it is rachel chan

37.Have you been caught in an unrequited love situation? specify.
i dun think so

38.Do you have a life?
yes duh, i study like shit everyday haha and slack when i am not studying, see i got life better than the undeads

39.Have you ever think someone died,when they really didn't?
i dun think so, other than in shows

40.What is the reason behind your profile song?
i got no song la

1.Who was the last person you saw in your dreams?
i dun remember my dreams until a deja vu happens

42.Last time I smiled?
like in the afternoon

43.Have you ever change this year?
i guess so , stronger

44.What are you listening to right now?
the 10 pm new and the lift bell

45.Are you talking to someone doing this?
Rainy lame porks, she is irritating me

46.Do you walk with your eyes opened or closed?
do you walk with your eyes close, no right so open la

48.Do you want someone you can't have?
yes i want to have bill gates as my god pa , so i can get all the money, i want mozart as my music teacher so i can play very well. well there are lots of things in life you want but cannot have

49.Have you ever played an instrument?
ya the gu zheng, di zi and guitar

50.What is the worst idea you have this week?
i can't remember

51.What are you doing last night 11.00p.m?
playing sims2

52.Are you happy with your love life?
erm i dunnoe, with my family and friends yes

53.What song do you describe your love life?
erm i dun exactly have a love life now so i have no idea

54.What do you think of the person who tagged you?
wah she laughs the whole night if you sleep with her, can cry one, no sleep and she is very high lor

55.Who always make you laugh?
Random people that always make fun of me.

56.Do you speak other language other than English?
chinese

57.Are you blond?
am i dumb? no i am not, so i am not blond

58.What's your full name?
Rachel Lim Jie Xin. haha

59.What are you doing tomorrow?
gu zheng lessons , home, mr koh

60.What do you think you are like?
a girl with a tom boy attitude and a dressing sense of a average girl

61.Who do you chose to die with?
erm i dunnoe i rather die along

62.Where have you been today?
Church, ps and home

63.What do you play often?
computer like very often

64.Who are you missing right now?
hmmm many people my mind is on physics now

65.If you are given a choose between LOVE & FRIENDSHIP,who will you choose?
friendship, cause friendship = lots of friends= many people you can rely on,but love is one boyfriend= 1 person you can rely on = 1 person help, unless you got lots of boyfriends la then different story

66.What are you doing right now?
doing physic on the topic pressure about a J tube

67.Which primary school are you from?
Anderson primary school

68.Name 3 colours you like.
blue black, black and purple

69.What emotion you like to show?
smiles haha everyone thinks i am nuts

70.What is life to you?
a roller coaster that can't be stop you gotta keep up with the flow

71.If you have something troubling you, what will you do?
i will solve it , if not tell girlfriend

72.Who did you last chat in msn?
leonard, on bridge lor

73.Who do you admire the most?
i dunnoe , people have different qualities to admire about

74.Which month are you born in?
august.

75.How are you feeling right now?
bored and irritated by rainy lame porks

76.What is the time now?
10.03pm

77.Where are you now?
at home on my table

78.What colour did you use to dye your hair?
no dye hair yet but i wanna get it gold

79.Why are you doing this test?
i have this test in my draft and wanna clear it

80.What do you do when you're moody?
i rant and cry and emo

81.At what age do you plan to get married?
never. haha no la 26 or 27

82.Who is more important to you now, boyfriend or friends?
friends cause i got no boyfriend

83.Do you think you have enough confidence?
no duh like you have like that

84.who is the person you trust most?
jesus and my family and friends

85.Will you love your crush/boyfriend forever?
no you nutter cause forever is a long time, when i can do it i will let you know

86.If you ever have a dream come true, what would it be?
rule the world i guess haha no la just that something amazing will happen in my life

87.What is your goal for this year?
get 10 points for o levels

88.Do you believe in eternity love?
that tough i guess so however i dun think it is easy to find one

89.What feeling do you love most?
Victory and owning guys in games and things they do, being in love of course and my most favourite feeling, IRRITATING RAINY LAME PORKS haha

90.Do you really think it's global warming now?
ya if not Rainy lame porks will not be melting le

91.What feeling do u hate the most?
i hate a broken heart and the lost and helpless feeling

92.Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
if you care for me i will cherish you

93.Do you believe in God?
yes i do ... do you?

94.Who cares for you most?
My parents and friends

95.What do you think are the most important things in your life?
everything that i love

96.What will you bring when you fight?
i will bring hmmm ... Rainy lame porks haha will wack the living day lights outta people... or i would just bring a erm the da gu in CO ... can smash people

97.Will you ever do something that will break the rule for your boyfriend?
no i ask him to break the law for me lor pls.

98.Who is the person who sent you the most messages in your inbox?
erm i dunnoe.my imbox got like 1000 messages never delete lor how to know

99.What if your stead two-timed you?
then i four time him back haha yes i very evil one

100.Are you sleepy?
a little i guess

instructions: remove one question from the above and replace with a personal question of yours. Then, bold it . Next, list 10 person whom you want them to do this at the end of the post. Notify them in their tagboard or tell them at msn so that he/she knows.

1.raina
2.simone
3.lorraine
4.abigail
5.nadiah
6.valerie
7.yanting
8.syvionia
9.rachellim
10.you! if you wna, do it lor.

the child likeness

2008-07-04T18:53:00.002+08:00

when i look at myself, all i see is a soon to be adult. Working and growing up in bout 5 to 7 years time.I was watching gurmit small talk on the MOBTV yesterday on the way home. He siad something that struck me alot.

"When i am with these kids i feel so energetic so young and full of energy making me feel hapy and full of life"

well i am not sure if this is the exact sentence, however it was something along this line.I thought about it to myself,"maybe i am still that little girl inside, i get all hype up about things in church when they are my passion. I try to put a smile in my work for god and even if so i try to make everyone feel my energy" some people will find me excessively annoying and noisy while others just think about me being plain childish.

i just wonder to myself how long more am i able to get the energy to be so active and happy all the time. it has been build into my nature all these years.One day my smile will fade and i will not be energetic anymore.but for now i hope to spread my energy and smile to everyone while i can.

i was reminiscing on the past where i saw 2 figure again. i just wonder many years down will they still be together. it is just a thought. no feeling though. Randomly i miss the times

i remember the days we spent together were not enough
and use to feel like dreaming except we always woke up.

all right on to tapestry. i might have the suditions next week or next next week.Pray for me people

TOodles
Rachel

working in coca-cola singapore a day

2008-06-28T00:21:00.007+08:00

now i am here to blog bout my mum's bring your kid to work day. mum brought my little cousins along to work and me and rainy lame porks have to baby sit them. reach there in the morning, sat at one of the office areas then when people walk pass we say pretend never see us.Mao jie kept repeating that . and laugh like nuts. later met Stacy whom we have nto met for a long time.She inspired me to get a sidekick phone . haha ok the magician and everything was great plus i GOT A NEW BOYFRIEND.haha ok he will come up in the pics ok

stacy and yu hao(she likes him)

me in my mask with my fringe.

cool

stacy wat with that face

the classically cliche i kiss myself style by rainy lame porks

NOW FOR EVERYONE WHO WANTS TO SEE MY NEW BOYFRIEND... HE HAS BEEN ON TV YOU KNOW

he treat me badly mah so i kicked him

then he said sorry so i gave him a hug

he even let stacy's cousin sit on him

jamie jie jie( mum colleague)
she gave me 2 GV tickets haha thanks

Ok that all for today

TOodles
Rachel

my first week in school

2008-06-27T23:29:00.004+08:00

Alrights school out for 2 days, and Rachel is in.Well alot has happen this week.I got my MT oral,which was bad cause i kept stuttering which was bad.then had tapestry Practice and had cell outing everything la.

First i went back to school with like half my homework done , a paul twohill fringe and freaking long nails.my fringe look like this

like brenna fringe but she pin hers up i did not.ok that settle going back the 2 day. i found out i got MT oral.i have to panic la. Cause oral will pull up the marks.yay i talk untill the teacher ask me to go off when i pause la.pray i did not talk outta point,

After oral was my very first tapestry fro this year.well the feeling of walking on my own to church on weekday night felt weird. i felt like i miss something , something was different from the last tapestry compare to this tapestry.Maybe the gel was not there. A whole new band a whole new game , whole new music.This time we are called the radicals

our band photo, guess who i am. Anyhoo thanks to ethel for doing this.It is really neat.Lionel had some sharing on goals and priorities, it is interesting to hear him talk sometimes. all the weird analogy that comes in to his mind. but really interesting good works in wonders in our team giving signals and signs.

on Friday which is today is our cell outing, ate at some jap restaurant at tampines swimming complex. ate alot and talked,listen and stuff like that. on the way home listen to Raina. she just a little anit-social kid la. i am not upset bout it, i have been through it before. nobody understand me then i felt horrible and everything, they come to me and need my help, they leave me when i am of no use. i hate these people. being me was tough i wanted to be good that everyone came to me and be my friend that everyone love me.i know how she felt. over the years god has change my thinking , form a young girl with a fear to someone who cares bout people who cares for me.I still get jealous of her sometimes but she has got her life. She seems plastic inside out, she hurts and upsets people.God will help me control my emotions and feelings.People pls talk to Raina, even i dun understand her emotions well enough, i am just worried bout her.

anyway i have learn a lot of lionel, over these years, following him and julian in cell group.Talking bout issues and learning how to trust god with him as an example of God's wonders working on him.I thank God for this cell leader.Well to learn from people around me about god's wonder.Now that is truly amazing.

TOodles
Rachel

back to the drawing board

2008-06-22T20:43:00.002+08:00

everyone knows tomorrow is the start of school and everyone knows that i don't like to study.Other than the long hours in school i am suffering from and the subconscious pressure is also another factor just to plainly say it i just dun like school.

when will the school make me fall in love with it.I need to love the school soon so i can love studies.Anyway i have not got my homework done . yes guilty charge.I am just not in the right state of mind.

PlAY LIKE CRAZY , WHEN IT IS TIME TO
WORK LIKE CRAZY, WHEN IT IS TIME TO

that all for today

TOodles
Rachel

quiz

2008-06-17T21:39:00.002+08:00

ok xinyi girlfriend ask me to do this quizes

People who have been requested to do the quiz,
write your answers on your blogs and replace any question that you dislike with a new question formulated by yourself.
Then tag 8 people to do this quiz and those who are chosen cannot refuse.
You cannot tag the person who tagged you.
Continue this game and send it to others.

1)What would your dream wedding be like?
hmmm a wedding in front of the aurora, where there are only me and my husband=D
2)State a date that is really important to you.
hmm 31 august cause that a 3 in 1 date
3)What is your favourite colour?
Black,blue,purple and hot pink
4)Do you have a pet?
a terrapin
5)Do you blogshop?
attempting to
6)Do you like blogging?
yes
7)who is/are your closest friend(s) in ur present class?
Karen kek AKA carrrot cake
8)Describe your form teacher.
tempremental
9)How intelligent are you?
slightly above average
10)state 3 or 4 words that are meaningful to you.
dreams and reality should not be mixed( opps that more that 4 words)

5 people being tagged :
1) Raina
2) Brenna
3) ziyang
4) banana(dhana)
5)emily

my second quiz

State a friend : Xinyi

1. Tell you why I befriended you.
cause you are a really good friend, hearing my whines and screams
2. Associate you with a song / movie.
hmm the arron yan ya lun song
3. Tell a random fact about you.
erm you like to be nice to people even if the person is someone you hate
4. Tell a first memory about you.
Jumping around and screaming
5. Associate you with an animal/fruit.
Dolphin
6. Ask something I've always wanted to know about you.
do you always have to use bad words ?

ok that all

TOodles
Rachy

shanghai

2008-06-16T15:26:00.002+08:00

hi people i just came back from shanghai people.

things to note

my hair is shorter(long gone my long locks)
i got my nails painted
i ate at least one 10 course meal everyday
i feel fatter
i bought tons of stuff
shopping spress in shanghai
i can eat a lot of xiao long bao

yup that is things that are needed to note. anyway the trip is ok, i enjoyed myself with my dinner buddies, roommate cum girlfriend, my crashing buddies(siying rebecca, jie ling, wifey AKA tessari, sixian and weixin) and emily and gang( emily brenna, joey, curry pok 1 aka aunty marryl, curry pok 2 aka patricks wife) the trip was awesome well these are not the only people i hang out with. many more of the CO people.I kinda miss CO already. anyway my photos will come up soon. did not take too many photos. so it is easy to upload.

TOodles
Rachel

coaching sux

2008-06-02T22:27:00.002+08:00

i have been having coaching for like a really long time and i am leaving for shanghai this Thursday. oh how i will miss everyone.anyway i just found out something that kinda cracked my heart.Somehow pretending that nothing happened would be my best solution.haix this trip will be a good get a way i pray.
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i got my song done, i mean welcoming song, yup got the beat all right. the thing that makes me puzzle is someone this morning ask me to guess whose birthday is on the 18 of june. still thinking. one hint is close to me but closer to that person still thinking.

hiax slowly think la. i gotta go

TOodles
Rachel

my day with suoh wei xin

2008-05-31T21:05:00.006+08:00

Today i went out with someone whom i don't actually really know well but in the end we both can hang out well. I have know her since sec1 however we really know each other better this year.Well she is Soh Wei Xin. Today we went to the bedok view carnival to support her friend. After that we left to TM to watch movie.Decided to catch narnia,Prince caspian. That movie really open my thought and mind.

ok let me share abit bout my favourite.ok

this william mosley, he acts as Peter Pevensie.the elder brother in narnia. i thought he is kinda cute.

this is ben barnes, he acts as prince caspian in narnia. i think he looks quite good looking too.

this is anna popplewell she acts as Susan Pevensie,Peter's younger sister. she is really pretty and in the show she is a cool heroine.Prince caspian actually like her and they farewell with a kiss. so touching

Anyway the show had a lot of battles, while they were fighting, i was just looking and think if this world did not have war, many people will have a easier life. this world will be a better place. i am not asking for world peace to happen cause that kinda impossible. Just that those that usually die are no the starter of war but yet the men who live and can't be bothered to give commands, they have families and friends that they will miss from war and when they die, it is these family and friends that cry for them.Some of these soldiers that go to war actually die ad leave behind their love ones.

then i remember one scene that lucy actually wanted to be braver and then aslan told her she could do it. then when the Telmarine wanted to cross the bridge, Lucy drew out a little sword and then everyone stared and laugh in the cinema. then when the telmarine charged at Lucy. then aslan showed up beside her and just a Roar by him and he got the waves to drown the telmarine.In Scene, aslan resembled god in my mind( lion of Judah) and lucy was like us normal people with fear and many doubts in life.So when lucy took out the little dagger, it is like us trying to fight our fears.then God will be there to hold us and help us as long as we believe in him and ourself that we can do it.

anyway that all for today i enjoyed myself with soh wei xin today.

Thank god for being with me through my life( a thought after that scene of aslan and lucy)\

TOodles
Rachel

quiz time

2008-05-31T01:33:00.004+08:00

Bloggie

i think i am feeling better, somehow that feeling some how come up once in awhile.i am having loads of relationship problem. not my problem.my juniors problem. well my problem is only 15%.

anyway my girlfriend wants me to do a quiz so i have to do

A) Anyone who has been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question they dislike with a new one.

B) Tag 8 ppl to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These ppl must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game.

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#1. If ur lover betrayed u, what would your reaction be?
erm i would punch that guy, show him i am better than his choice of girls and then make him regret and beg me.

#2. If i could wish for 10 things, what would they be?
erm for me to be happy, for that person whom i like to be happy, family & friend to be good and happy, for Rachel to pass my o levels with 8 points, to find a very gentlemen boyfriend.the Earth to be perfect. to take up every instrument in this world. to form my own band.To have super good vocals.To fufill my dreams in this life time.

#3. What will ur dream wedding be like?
To Have it somewhere beautiful ,to marry someone i love

#4. What would u do with a billion dollars?
spend all i want , the remaining give god

#5. Whats ur ideal lover like?
a kind and generous person that would give to help the poor,a man who can give women respect they deserve and to love a women his life. a man who can cook ,clean and do the housework.must be taller than me,maturity level must be higher than me. a fun loving man and put family first before work.Whatever as long as i love you, you are in.

#6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
Loving Someone, although i get hurt if i love someone more however i feel more at ease with me loving someone

7. How long do u intend to wait for someone u truly love?
I truly love... hmmm i think i would la if he would marry me in the end so i will not turn old

#8. If the person u secretly like is already attached, what wld u do?
i would bless them and let them go( something to do with my principles)

9. Is there anything that has made u unhappy these days?
Yes, my problems

#10. What cheers u up the fastest?
encouraging words from people whom i care

#11. How do u see yourself in 10 yrs' time?
A superwoman who handles many things at one time, well a famous singer and chemist ( that simple)

#12. What is your unlucky number?
dun have cause every number has a equal prosibility

#13. What kind of person do u think the person who tagged u is?
my girlfriend, a kind and helpful girl and she love guys( not very sure leh) and she loves me=D

#14. Would u rather be single and rich or married but poor?
i rather be single and rich cause if i am married but then not happy how? i gonna cry lor. so must be rich

#15. Whats on my mind ?
my brain is half fried so can't really thin, actually hmm should i do online shopping.

#16. Would u give all in a relationship?
yes.if it i serious

#17. If u fall in love with 2 ppl, who would u pick?
my xinyi and that someone

#18. What type of friends do u like?
people who can click and understand me and not judge me for the outer appearance

(drum roll)
my 8 dudes and duddettes are
Rainy lame porks
ziyang
Dhana( uncle banana)
Anna
Sherry
Emily
Grace
Xin xian

ok anyway today CHIJ st Nicholas concert with ah boy and Rainy lame porks.i enjoyed my day la , i did not feel it was a waste,i thought it was good especially the string orchestra.i was awed by the violins la.

that all for today

TOodles
Rachel

emontional

2008-05-27T22:54:00.003+08:00

recently been emotional so i may post more than once again.Reading through dead blogs.I realise something is not right in me .Why that tinge of anger when her name is mention , why do i feel so scared.suddenly i did not feel like myself i felt something else.Being typical me i jumped into conclusions with out asking, i don't intend to ask.

Stop barging into people life like you know then well Rachy.if people are happy together, even though it is not said out loud. i should make them happy i should not stand between them.i should go all out to help them get together right. i have been telling myself this . i must get people together. i can't fall in love, i can't afford to fall in love. it will ruin my life. but yet i just keep falling in love. i have to devote my life to helping people find happiness.I just screw up all relationships i should just concentrate on my life.

people who just think i am being weird can ignore the top post cause that just how i feel. you have no right to tell me how i should feel. unless i owe you something or something along that line.anyway ignoree me i am going through a emotional time where nobody really knows.Anyway i have long gone got over my mourning of my old relationship phrase. now it is just a new start however i will not say anything cause even if i say nothing good will come outta it. just leave me alone.

i have thought running through my head like a bullet train.
all bout you and that girl
whether or not it is true bout the 2 of you
only time will tell

TOodles
Rachel

a message to guys

2008-05-27T14:59:00.004+08:00

well why am i typing in this front. oh well this front looks cool rite . just a little big. anyway this is a email from rainy lame porks. she sent it to me i felt it was quite true i mean seriously guys who can't treasure their girls don't deserve a nice girl so i think every guy need this list in handy this how every girl feels so don't take her for granted

This is really sweet........

-When a Girl is quiet ...
millions of things are running
in her mind.

-When a Girl is not arguing ...
she is thinking deeply.

-When a Girl looks at u
with eyes full of questions
... she is wondering
how long you will be around.

-When a Girl answers
' I'm fine '
after a few seconds
...she is not at all fine.

-When a Girl stares at you
... she is wondering why you
are lying.

-When a Girl lays on your
chest ...
she is wishing for you to
be hers forever.

-When a Girl wants to see you
everyday...
she wants to be pampered.

-When a Girl says
' I love you ' ...
she means it.

-When a Girl says
' I miss you ' ...
no one in this world can
miss you more than that.

-Life only comes around
once make sure u spend it
with the right person...

Find a Guy,
-Who calls you beautiful
instead of hot.

-Who calls you back when
you hang up on him.

-Who will stay awake
just to watch you sleep.

-Wait for the guy who ...
kisses your forehead.

-Who wants to show you
off to the worldwhen you
are in your sweats.

-Who holds your hand in
front of his friends.

-Who is constantly
reminding you of how much
he cares about you and
how lucky he is to have you.

-Who turns to his friends
and says, ' That's her!! '

anyway you guys still remember the post on dumb girls( refer to 28 april 2008)
well 18 people have voted and outta 18. 2 picked dumb girls and the rest pick smart girls so maybe the 2 think that this is a joke or something else. Anyway i will post up more polls for people .Guys read this post with your eyes freaking big.

TOodles
Rachel